Falling in love with someone can be the one of the most beautiful and epic things a person can experience. You feel alive. Complete even. It is as if all the issues you had are magically gone and if something is bothering you, you have someone who will listen with their full attention because you are just that important to them. Your steps are a little more lively. Your smile is brighter. You yourself are exploding with happiness from the inside out. You feel on top of the world.
And it is all because of one special person.
Your person.
And to think this all started with one little conversation. With a simple hello. But from that first moment, that first look, somewhere inside of you knew that this was a person you could fall in love with. And you did. You fell hard.
Fell in love with their smile and their love of music. Their corny jokes and despite how bad they were, they always made you laugh. You fell in love with the way they would speak about what they were passionate about. You fell in love with their mind. You fell for the fact that you could talk about anything and everything. You fell in love because they made you feel safe. You fell in love because they accepted you for who you are, no questions asked.
And then one day, it all changes.
At the time, it crushed you. It destroyed you even. And it took everything in your power to move on.. even though that did not happen until months after. You spent countless hours with your best friend asking "what did I do wrong?" while the tears streamed down your face as you remembered all of the wonderful memories you shared. But eventually less tears are shed and you regain that bounce in your step. And you start to smile even brighter than you did before. You begin to wake up and not feel this remorse or anger. You scroll through Instagram and you no longer get sad when you see their name pop up or even when you see that their falling in love with someone else. Instead, you're happy.. despite everything. Happy because you know they still deserve happiness no matter what happened between the two of you.
So, here I am writing this to you. Writing this because I wanted to thank you. I wanted to thank you for the time that we spent together because it was one hell of a ride. I wanted to thank you for being the person I could call and tell anything to. I wanted to thank you for making me feel so alive. And most of all, for being the someone I fell in love with.
But this is also me saying goodbye and finally regaining the power that I willingly gave you. I realized, after it is all said and done, that I don't need you to make me happy or to make me feel alive. I don't need your love to feel complete. I don't need you to give me that extra bounce in my step. I don't need you. I don't need you because I can do that all on my own.. and probably even more.
So, thank you. Thank you from the bottom of my heart for helping me discover this new side of myself without even knowing you helped. A new part of me that is alive and happy all on my own. A beautiful part of myself that I am embracing with open arms.
