Dear Boy that I Loved,
You were the one. The one that made me feel safe. The one that made me feel as though I was the only girl in the world. You told me that I was the only person that you could count on and trust with your darkest secrets. You told me that you would never lie to me. You said that you saw a future with me. You said that you've never felt like this for any other girl before. You said I was different. Man, did you say a lot of things. Why is it, though, that I went to bed every night feeling betrayed? Feeling like I wasn't really the only girl in your world? That's because while you were telling me that you wanted to marry me, you were telling another girl that you loved her, and telling another girl that she had all of your attention. I gave you all of my trust and feelings while all you gave me was free food.
Despite my disgust for you, I want to thank you. No, this is not me condoning what you've done to me or any other girl. This is me showing you that I've forgiven all of your actions. It's me telling you what you've made me realize. I am now understanding what God meant when He said in Proverbs 3:15, "She is more precious than rubies..." See, you made me feel like I was a piece of trash and that I was worthless. You made me feel like I deserved this type of treatment. However, the reality is that I deserve a man that will treat me like the precious gem that I am. I deserve to be treated with the utmost respect, which you never showed. Thank you for helping me see that you were not that man before it was too late.
Thank you for reminding me to not be naive with my emotions and to listen to my family. It's not often that I let people see my heart. I am constantly guarded because of the hurt that life has caused me. Since you had a way with words, you made it seem like I could trust you with everything. Wrong. It should have been a red flag when my family would tell me that you were no good. That you were just playing with me.
I don't know where you will end up in this life. I don't know who you will end up with either but I do know that it won't be with me. I wish you the best that this world can offer and I hope you find the girl that teaches you what true love is. Never let her go.
Sincerely,
The girl who is worth everything and more
