I am so sick of that question. Are we there yet? Have we arrived at the place everyone says we should be? I mean, who among us really knows where that place is? I certainly don’t, do you?
I am so grateful that I am not the only one without the answers. One of the most beautiful things about right now is I know I’m not alone. 90 percent of the time, I am wandering around, bumping into walls, totally lost and confused. When I look around, I see a whole bunch of other people doing the same thing. Thank God.
As students and/or young adults, we are constantly being questioned about our direction, our purpose and our goals. Have you decided on a major? What do you want to do with that? What are your career goals? Where do you want to live? Do you want to have kids? Or, my all time favorite, simply: what do you want to do?
Do you know what I want to do?
I want to study in peace and learn for the sake of learning. These years as a college student are unique and enlightening in all sorts of different ways. I want to be here, mind, body and soul. I appreciate the opportunity I have been given and I am making the most of it. I want wishy-washy to be redefined as curious. I want to change my mind and explore new ideas.
I want to work in a field I love. You’re right, I may not make money, but true fulfillment is so much more important to me. I want to wake up every day excited and energized for the work I get to perform. I want to discover purpose in every fleeting moment.
I want to live near those I love. But, first, I want to travel. I want to submerge myself in another culture and find peace among the crowds in a foreign city. I don’t have my heart set on a mortgage by 28. I don’t know or care when or where I’ll be married or have kids. All I want is a life full of love.
I don’t want to compete anymore; I want to enjoy. I want music to fill my life up to the brim with expression and exuberance. I want ice cream in my freezer always. I want to dance like crazy and without a care. I want to laugh until it hurts, day and night. I want to see movies that blow my mind and read books that make me think. I want to die having seen as much of this planet as I can. I want to self-cultivate and reflect every day on how to commit myself, in every moment, to living in happiness.
So from now on, I won’t be concerning myself with the destination. I am going to have a blast on this road trip, not just worry about whether or not I’ll make it there on time.
What I want is, for once, to not have my desires and goals questioned. I am the creator of my life, not you. Thank you for your interest. I can take it from here.
