Self-love is a journey. I’ve learned over the past year or so that having confidence and changing your life for the better makes everything better.
I’ve always been insecure about my weight and what I look like, so I decided to start exercising and changing my lifestyle in a way that makes me feel better and that will help me more in the long run.
I lost the weight for me, and it has made me feel amazing. I can stand up a little bit straighter and keep my head up again. Talking to people is easier and going through life is just better.
Having said that, I don’t appreciate people, specifically, guys, who wouldn’t give me the time of day when I was 16 or 17 and awkward and shy and not aesthetically pleasing but now suddenly are trying to hit me up and talk to me and flirt with me.
I’m not stupid, I know that all most of them want is to get into my pants. Believe it or not, I’m not interested in or attracted to guys who I can only be around and talk to if I have makeup on and my hair is done.
I’m more than my appearance. Changing how I look and feel was for me. It made me more confident, but I take pride in the fact that I’m a hard worker and enjoy writing and having an intelligent conversation.
There are people that have stuck through this journey with me.
In fact, my friends and I have all made changes to our lives for the better, and we’re all thriving with the fact that we feel better about ourselves and are more confident.
They’ve seen me at my worst, and they’ve helped me through it.
Right now, I’m at a high point, and if you’re just going to leave me when things get hard or when I need someone to walk beside me when I’m not feeling the greatest, don’t bother coming into my life.
If I’m nothing more to you than just another pretty face who you snapchat whenever you’re feeling yourself, then you’re nothing more to me than another guy who I know I can’t trust and isn’t worth my time that I could spend working or improving myself.
If your only intentions for me involve my body or what I’m wearing, don’t talk to me, don’t look at me and take me off of your list of all the girls that you say those things to.
I’m no one’s fourth or fifth choice when the other girls are all too busy to entertain your annoying habits. I don’t need you to feel better about myself, and I’m not wasting my life on a guy who didn’t want me when I wasn’t at my best.