I don’t understand why you thought I would stay and put up with your mean and cruel ways. If the tables were turned, would you stay? Probably not. Yet, I understand. I get it. I am nice and you took my kindness for weakness and granted. You had this expectation that your actions, no matter how much pain they caused me, would never bother me or I would stay no matter the circumstances. It did not matter how I felt because the only thing that mattered was that you received what you wanted. It was very childish and typical of you. Since we did not know each other long, I cannot be mad at you for the things you do, say, or did. You were selfish. I am very certain you may never admit it but that is ok. It is my turn to be selfish. I need to make sure we have an understanding that you will not get accustomed to treating me any kind of way. When things are all said and done, I did warn you. I specifically said, “I will stop speaking to you and not think twice about it.” You ignored me and did not believe me. For future references, I keep my promises.

I don’t understand why you thought I would stay and put up with your mean and cruel ways. If the tables were turned, would you stay? Probably not. Yet, I understand. I get it. I am nice and you took my kindness for weakness and granted. You had this expectation that your actions, no matter how much pain they caused me, would never bother me or I would stay no matter the circumstances. I do not know where you got this idea of from but try again buddy. When we met, what was it about me? I was being friendly when I held a conversation. Believe me, again, when I say that I have no problem being in a room full of people and entertaining myself. I will give it to you though. I fell foolishly stupid hard for you. Not as in I fell in love with you but like me you can hold a conversation, an entertaining one at that. You were not in total blame for the disappointment you caused me. I have to take full responsibility for my part too. You did not do it all alone because I am very much your accomplice. I just get so confused, frustrated, and disappointment when people have these low expectations or misconceptions of me. Do not feel bad thought because you are not the only one and will not be the last.

I don’t understand why you thought I would stay and put up with your mean and cruel ways. If the tables were turned, would you stay? Hell No. I do not understand. I do not get it. I am nice and PEOPLE take my kindness for weakness and granted. Family, friends, neighbors, classmates, acquaintances, and boyfriends (The list can go further) have this expectation that I will forever being around waiting to be mistreated and neglected. Ha!

*Oh, by the way, I have no expectation that anyone will stay and put up with me. I can be a lot to handle.