Suicide is such a real topic now-a-days and I feel like for some reason, the more that it keeps happening we continue to ignore that this is real issue. So many people either have thought about it, attempted it, or actually did it, yet so little people were aware. The one thing that people say about the situation is that they never saw it coming. I guarantee that a good amount of the time people don't just wake up one day and decide that they don't want to be alive. It's something that grows overtime, people are just so oblivious to the silent screams.
This is a serious issue that concerns myself because I've been there. I've been that person who thought about and had those moments when I felt like there was absolutely no other option. Clearly, I overcame it because I'm still here today, but others didn't. Suicide stories are always heartbreaking because everyone wants to play the blame game. They try to blame themselves, others, or even the person, but when it's all said and done it wasn't anyone's fault. If you're going to blame anyone blame the monster that gets stuck in people's heads. The leech that secretly clips to their ear and tells them that they aren't worth crap. The lies that are repeated so constantly that one just accepts it.
There are plenty of suicide prevention centers, organizations, hotlines, and more, and to those I thank them so much, but honestly, it starts with the simple mundane. If you talk to anyone, ever, then it starts with you. It takes people being open and not being judgmental all the time. I never felt like I could tell people what was wrong because I knew that someone would judge me or just say that I was being over-dramatic. I knew this because it had happened before. Let people know that they're safe to talk to you.
Hearing that someone close to you attempted suicide is-- it's a feeling that I can't even explain and I've experienced it. Those words alone make your heart stop and shatter. All that you can think about is what if it had worked and then they were gone? Those kinds of thoughts will haunt you in your sleep. It's this kind of pain that makes me feel like I need to bring attention to the subject. I want people to understand that this is a real problem. This is something that real people go through. I want everyone to stop playing the blame game and just be a voice. A safe haven if you will.
To those who know someone who has attempted or thought about suicide or even if you don't, let someone know that you're there. Let people know that you're going to be there for them no matter what. If you love someone tell them that every single day. If you adore, cherish, or appreciate someone, tell them that. Let people know that you will be a safe haven and you will not judge them no matter what.
To those who have attempted or even thought about killing themselves, please please PLEASE talk to someone. I don't care who. Whether a teacher, a best-friend, a counselor, whatever. Just talk to someone and know that you are loved. I know that you don't want to believe because I didn't either, but seriously there are people out there who love you so much. I, a complete stranger, can tell you that you are great and I love and care about you.
I love you all.
