My best friend and I went to see "How to be Single," not too long after I had gotten out of a long (and mentally exhausting) relationship. I remember feeling all, "Hell yeah! I’m gonna rock this ish! Ima kill it!" Not even kidding, that’s the exact thought I had as I skipped into the theater, arm in arm with my bff.
It’s now been quite some time since we went to see the movie and recently it came up in a conversation with one of my other single friends and it really made me think; I suck at this. I suck at being single. I suck at living it up. I’m really just terrible.
I’m not that girl that puts herself out there. I’m not that girl that goes after a guy she thinks is cute. I’m not that girl that wants to hangout or Netflix and chill. I think going out every night of the weekend is exhausting, I really hated Tinder after about a week of having it and I’m not that girl that likes to get hit on at bars. I’m just not her and I’m just not good at this.
Maybe I’m weird or maybe I’m just old but I hate the ‘Let’s hang’ texts that are somehow someone showing romantic interest in you. I’m just not going to waste my time with that. I like blunt and to the point. I like "Hey can I take you out to dinner, pick you up tomorrow at 8?" I like obvious because I’m not going to waste my time wondering what the hell this is. At the risk of sounding vain and pompous, I’m saying that it’s just not worth my time or attention.
Why the hell would it be when I actually like being by myself. I like coming home to my quiet apartment. I like never wearing pants. I like getting home from work only to sit down with my laptop to do more work. I like watching Netflix with just my cat or my friends. I like having an entire bed to myself. I like going to breakfast by myself with a good book. I like being alone.
And honestly, I’m tired of people thinking that’s weird! I’m tired of guys thinking I should be honored that they’re asking me to "hang" because that’s just them asking me to settle. But I don’t need to, I completely have my ish together for my age and I enjoy being alone. I’m not just okay with it, I like it.
So yes, I suck at being single. I am in no way "rocking it," but I just don’t care anymore. Go ahead and think I’m weird or odd for enjoying my alone time; I like my independence, and if you think that’s weird, you’re probably just not worth it anyways.
