You ever love someone so much that just looking at them gives you butterflies?
The chills just run up your spine and diffuse into your limbs up into your neck until your head jolts you back to reality.
You can't wait for them to turn around and look for you the same way you look for him.
Because he always does, he always looks for me.
It's his eyes. How they're big, blue, and are scrunched into thought until he finds you and they shoot open wide. You were his thought.
He could be doing something as simple as watching tv, getting a hair cut, trying to pick out what to wear that day and you just can't help but smile looking at him.
His everyday activities make me smile. They make me love him. They make me feel stupid.
Even if you aren't looking at him, you hear his voice and everything inside of you melts. He doesn't even have to be talking to you, but just his voice. That voice. Do you know subconsciously that your favorite sound is the sound of your own name? The sound and the reassurance that comes with someone saying it, your name brings you joy. Mine is not my name. Mine is his voice.
Is this what they call stupid love?
That literally something so stupid just makes you fall in love with him even more and more and more and more.
And then more and more and more.
You already think that your love for him surpasses all but then he does something and it happens again. It's stupid. It doesn't make sense. It's like a never-ending amount of levels. You think it's done and this is the best of it, but no wait A NEW LEVEL!
I am this giddy little girl, every damn time. Like the one that believes that prince charming is going to find me sleeping and kiss me awake to bring me to our castle. Except real life it's cashed out on the couch after too many glasses of red wine and he has to carry me to bed so I can wake up to a headache. But it is still worth it, he is still there. And now I look stupid.
This is why it is called stupid love.
Oh gosh, and when he catches me looking at him I feel stupid because I have a silly grin on my face. I didn't even know it was there but there it is, a smile.
Stupid.
But I'll be stupid every day for the rest of my life. I'll be stupid every day for him. Because I am so stupidly in love, I don't know what could change that. I don't think anything could change that. I love being stupid. I love being just stupidly in love.
