I sometimes think there comes a time in your life when everything becomes paused. In this moment, you get to look around yourself and just see. You see what others are doing and how you all live together, but also separately. When this moment came for me, it made me realize that right now is all we have. There is no need to plan out the moments that might, or might not, happen in a week from now.
Monday: Work from ten to five, read before dinner, workout.
Tuesday: Work from ten to five, talk to friend for half hour, workout for thirty minutes, movies.
Wednesday: Farmers Market for 55 minutes, work from twelve to five, workout for 50 minutes, hang out with a friend for two hours.
Thursday: Work from ten to five, sit with family for half hour, workout for 30 minutes, read until bed.
Friday: Work from ten to five, workout before dinner, go out to dinner, FaceTime with the boyfriend.
I eventually learned this is no way to live. Planning out your life down to the minute does not help. Planning out your life down to the minute only causes problems. Originally, I thought that scheduling everything would help me with my busy lifestyle. Thinking to myself, "Well if I have everything all planned, then nothing will be missed, everything will be done". Eventually, I then realized things don't take exactly an hour to get done, they take an hour and some minutes. Usually, those minutes would drive me nuts, to the point where I knew those minutes would cost time when I have to go do something else.
All this catching up because I was off schedule was exhausting. I was exhausted to the point of where I knew something needed to change. When I talked to and watched other people, they didn't do this. From listening, I learned some people don't know what they're doing tomorrow let alone four days from now. This is when I truly realized that something needed to change for the better.
All the sayings of "live for today" or "live for the moment" could never be so true for me now. It might come down to control but that turns into understanding. Everything can't be controlled, especially unexpected variables and that is what must be completely understood. For now live in the moment, live for the moment and cherish the seconds. Instead of stressing about how something might turn out, enjoy how it does. Don't live for, or on a schedule because none of us know the actual one. Stop planning, start living.
