It’s so hard to forget our unhappiness because it’s natural. We not only are biologically programmed to see wrong, to hear wrong, and to speak wrong, but we painfully remember every way we were wronged by others. In our bodies, to prevent further suffering, we cling onto past feelings and memories despite the reality that we cannot change what had already happened to us. And it's ironic-- we find it harder to move on. We blame our family, friends, acquaintances, and even God for the times we wish had never happened, and by doing so, we forget our own responsibilities. If you blame God for what He has given you, how can you possibly imagine being given anything greater?
Do yourself a favor, and learn what forgiveness really is, because only then can you truly move on.
After I had stopped blaming God, I’ve realized that I was never in control in the first place for a reason. Whenever something went right, it was wrong for me to not give Him any credit. I stole his glory because during those moments that I had felt unstoppable, I believed were the result of my own strength. So remember to be humble in your resilience like that of a mountain: Stand tall, stay quiet, and reach out to the heavens to hug them tight, because you will be touched by God forever.
When you stop blaming God, you will fall in love. It will change your perspective on intimacy and openness because you won’t feel alone. Time will pass by quickly like when you’re chatting with a good friend, and you will feel more at ease. Think of all the times you’ve relied on telling your problems to a best friend or family member, but it is so much more with God. You can tell him anything without actually speaking aloud, and if you’re worried about what he thinks, don’t think too much of it because he already knows and still loves you anyway. So don’t blame anything on someone who loves you that much. God knows that you can handle it, and He will use you for so much than yourself. Speak up when you’re ready, and show others your experiences. Forget seeing your hardships as a curse, and instead use it as a light to yourself and others. Be a blessing.
Not only will people see you differently, but your views on the world will drastically change once you stop blaming God. You will understand that he loves everyone, including those who we might not consider to be good people. And hopefully you’ll start to adopt that mindset: to forgive, to help, and to love. Eventually, you’ll be happier with yourself because you’ll know that you’re improving spiritually, mentally, and sometimes even physically. You will be less worried about concerning yourself over what has happened to you, because in the end you'll realize that you don’t own time.
Perspectives change, and you will come to understand that you are able to do anything because you're not alone. Life is like an open book, full of obstacles and choices,and you can choose to stop reading anytime. But until you flip the last page, don’t ever leave it unfinished because the ending is then not yours to say. You’ll never be able to tell anyone what happened in each chapter, and your job as a believer to glorify His name won't be fulfilled. So with each suffering, use it as a chance to experience for the behalf of the world.
I hope this is a reminder for us to remember that with God, we are more precious than any earthly jewel. To him, we are not forever unpolished or tainted, because in Ephesians 2:4-5, “by grace, we will be saved”. Know that with God you are more stronger than a diamond, more passionate than the fires of a ruby, purer than the highest of gold, and more iridescent than the milkiest opal. Know that the struggles you encounter are just a way for God to remind you that he is working in you. Show the world how much stronger you become through Him.
I love you all.
