The time approaching graduation is intimidating to say the least. Personally, I am graduating early, which means an earlier deadline on when to get life together and figured out. Yikes. The pressure that builds up in this intense time of decision making is stressful and annoying, regardless of your deadline.
Am I going to get a real adult job? Am I going to travel the world? Am I going to jump into grad school? Where will I live?
Well, here's the answer:
I don't know.
So please, stop asking me because the answer hasn't changed... yet.
I am not trying to be mean in saying that, but what I am trying to do is communicate that I still don't know what in the world I am going to do. Trust me, I wish I knew what I was doing too—no one wants to know more than I do. But for right now, please let me sit and rest in this time of personal growth, giving me the space and capacity to establish my next step.
I’m in the process of figuring things out. Please, let me experience that process. For some, it’s easy and immediate, but for me... it’s taking some time. I need to respect the fact my plans are going to need a little more time, thought and prayer before being established. I realize that I am not able to make those big decisions quite yet, and that is okay.
As someone who is a Type A personality, not knowing is kind of killing me, but at the same time it isn't, because I am in the process of figuring things out. I know I'm not ready to make the big decisions yet, so it is giving me the patience to wait for things to fall into place. I also know God will provide the answers when the time is right, so I will rightfully rest in that trust.
So again, please stop asking.
For some, you’re just being nosy without really caring about what I do. It’s more of a small talk conversation. For others, you are expressing legitimate concern, coming from good intentions, actually caring about seeing me succeed.
Either way, my answer is still the same.
To my family and friends, thank you for your love, support and encouragement. Know that I recognize your questions come from a place of love, and you want nothing more than the absolute best for me. Y'all always cheer me on, and you just want to know what specifically you will be supporting me with.
But don't worry, when I know what will happen next, I will tell you—I promise. I will not withhold important, and literally life-changing information. But for right now, I need you to be patient while alongside me on this journey.
