How are you doing up there? I hope it's everything you wanted it to be. I wonder if you look the same or if you look like you did when you were 30. I hope you're with the people you once loved on Earth before they left too. I selfishly sit here each day and wish I could spend another with you. Haven't gotten my closure yet, but I'm getting there.
Nothing is the same without you. I know you're watching the things I do, and things I continue to do that you loved while you were here with us. I will continue to do my best in school, and be the person you'd want me to be. Anything to make you proud from above, I will do it. Death is something I've never had to endure from such a close view. Even when life seems so cruel and unfair, it was a little less cruel and unfair when you were around.
Laughing, even when things weren't that funny, you made them funny. Crying when things weren't right, me making you laugh instead so I could see you happy again. Never complaining, because you said you had everything you ever wanted right here. Always saying the kindest words out of your mouth, never ever foul. Offering help when you could, and it always being appreciated more than you knew.
Will I ever get closure as to why God took you when I didn't want him to? I won't. But you know why, and that's all that matters. You left this twisted world so peacefully, and that's all I could've ever asked for. Your memory will never vanish, not even a bit. I had the best of your support in my presence. Now I just have it from a higher up position.
Please watch over me and guide me through the hard times. Laugh at me through the silly times. Smile with me at the good times. Hold my hand while I cry at the sad times. Be in my atmosphere while I thrive at the thrilling times. Never leave me, completely.
Love,
Your admirer from Earth
