People will always tell you fight for what you love... However, nobody tells you to stop fighting when you start losing yourself in the process. So, you try and hold on even when you know you shouldn’t. You tell yourself that it will get better even though nothing has changed. You hope that they will change but you know deep down they won’t.
You try to remember all the good times so that they outweigh the bad. You remember all the laughs and all the fun times. However, you begin to sleep next to a lie. A lie because they aren’t that same person who made you laugh. The same person you fell in love with. The same person who constantly reminded you how much you meant.
Instead, now you get cold shoulders and mixed emotions. One week you’re good the next you aren’t. Petty arguments begin and resentment starts. Before you know it you’re in a rollercoaster of emotions trying to hang on tight. Afraid to let go, but it just keeps getting bumpier. You look into their eyes and you don’t see the admiration they once had for you. You go to sleep at night and realize you don’t feel at peace anymore.
Truth of the matter is you need to let go. If you don’t you’ll continue living in a lie. You’ll continue losing yourself. You’ll continue feeling trapped in your thoughts. You start to lose your self worth. No matter how hard it is you have to because if you don’t the resentment will grow into hate. LOVE YOURSELF FIRST. Because that relationship was over a long time ago and you already knew that. You’ll be okay and it will get better. Somebody will come into your life and love all the broken pieces of your puzzle.
