I absolutely, positively have to start every morning with a cup of coffee. It’s part of my morning routine, just like how brushing my teeth is also a part of my morning routine. Sometimes when I’m in a rush and I don’t have time to stop and get coffee, both my body and mind are well aware and they retaliate against me.

It’s actually very scary how much of me is dependent on coffee. It’s like I’m a car and coffee is the gas that I need in order to run. I was suffering withdrawals from coffee—or rather, I was suffering withdrawals from the caffeine that is in coffee. When I'm without coffee, I experience the following:

Excessive yawning:

I feel like I do it every minute, I just can not stop yawning because my whole entire entity is just so tired.

Inability to stay awake:

All that yawning eventually leads to me falling asleep everywhere: class, the dining hall, the library, etc. I just can't stay awake!

Fatigue:

But if I am awake, I'm so tired. I would feel like I just sprinted a marathon 24/7.

Blurry vision:

Sometimes my eyes can't focus on the board or the notes that are right in front of me. My eyes would get very watery frequently, too.

Shaking:

I would find myself shaking, even if I'm not cold!

Intense headaches:

The headaches that occur are almost unbearable. They're painful and numbing, and no amount of water or food or naps could help ease the pain.

And literally the only cure to these symptoms is a cup of coffee. I find that when I drink that cup of coffee, I become awake and I have energy in me, my vision is cleared, the shaking stops, and the headaches are nowhere to be found.