You know, they say that your relationship with your siblings only gets better as you age; while most of you know that your relationship with your siblings is usually rough and hard during your younger years. Through it all, you learn to love them regardless of how much you despise them.
I have three older siblings: Jamie, Sienna, and Sara. They are all significantly older than me. We share our dad, but we have different mothers, so that put a barrier between us; not by choice, but by fate. I love them, but I have always yearned for a relationship with them; only seeing them on the weekends that I was with my dad.
When I was born, my sister Sienna was the one sibling who was basically addicted to me; while Sara and Jamie weren't too thrilled with me. Jamie was 13, Sienna was 11, and Sara was 9. I always thought that they were kids that I was related to, but I never realized that they were my siblings. We used to all go out to dinner and hang out at my father's house; those are the days that I will cherish and remember for the rest of my life. I remember those days vividly, but as I got older and so did they, we drifted apart because they were becoming young adults while I was becoming a teenager.
Never really seeing them, only on rare occasions. When I was 11, my sister Sara told us that she was pregnant; that threw me for a whirlwind, seeing as now I would become an uncle in the fifth grade. That I feel brought me closer to my siblings, then five more children came along in the years to come.
I have always felt distant from them, mainly because the three of them are fully biologically related to each other, whereas I am only half related to them. I feel that I can't have a true connection with them because of it. That's my feelings, and I remember my sister Sara saying to me "I and Sienna were talking, and out biggest regret is that we didn't get to know you." That struck home for me because that's exactly how I felt all throughout my life. I always wanted their love and their siblingship. Now that they are older, all married and have children; they are living their lives while I am off in college, pursuing higher education. I never get to see them, and I can't wait to see them again.
All in all, I wish that I had a better and stronger relationship with my siblings. This is something that we all are going to have to work on because I want them at my wedding and I want them in my life as I hope they feel the same way. Speaking to them, I'm sorry for whatever I've done to cause hurt or harm; because, in the end, I'm your little brother and will always love you.
