I never understood why people get so heartbroken when relationships end, until you. We weren't even together yet I was still a wreck. I remember when I couldn't listen to certain songs because it would remind me of you. Reminding me of you purposely butchering my favorites songs just to get me to laugh. Our time together was short, but yet it meant so much to me.

You played this game with me, leading me to believe that eventually we would be together. That you recently got out of a relationship and you weren't in the position to get hurt or hurt anyone. Funny how that works, right?

My friends opened my eyes, since I had blinders on for you and all your lies. I couldn't see that the truth was I was just a fun game for you. If it wasn't for those amazing people in my life, we would've been playing this game for longer than what it was.

Thank god for them.

They gave me the strength that I couldn't find in myself at the time to break it off with you. I needed that support and love from them to realize what that truly felt like. You kept claiming we were friends but friends are people who genuinely care about you. If you cared about me, you would've fought for me to stay in your life. Thank you for not doing that, it really opened my mind.

Those months after cutting you off were the best months I've had in a long time. I started to really live my best life and have slowly started the process of loving myself. I've surrounded myself by love. Love for my future, friends, family, life, music, etc. I needed to get wounded to really understand heartbreak.

Jump ahead to the holidays.

I'm finally doing great without you. I found my happiness with myself, found amazing friends and stopped being heartbroken. That's when you decide to appear again. You didn't even apologize for what you did. For leading a girl on who you knew was hopelessly falling for you. I fell for the good guy that I thought you were, later to learn that you were nothing but a monster.

Why'd you reappear? For your own selfish agenda. You don't like me, let alone do you have any good intentions yet again. I'm nothing more than a rebound to you, but you're nothing more than a negative presence that I no longer want in my life.

You're an immature boy who's scared to be alone. The minute you jump out of a relationship, you run to the next available girl. You can't go even a minute without having someone there. If you ask me, it's sad.

No, I wasn't waiting around for you. Why did I even answer? Well you know what they say, curiosity killed the cat. I needed to know why you all of a sudden wanted back into my life. You're a pretty predictable person. It wasn't hard for me to already know that you wanted to "try again and see where things go" without even asking.

I wanted the last words. I wanted you to know that I've moved on and you weren't a priority to me anymore. I'm not going to lie, saying no to you even now was challenging but it felt so good to reject you.

I've gotten so much stronger thanks to you and I really want to thank you for that. I was naive and thought that you were a genuine guy. I've learned and grown a lot in the past couple of months. If you had met the me I am now, you wouldn't have been able to foul her. She's strong, confident and capable of loving someone much better than you.

You didn't break me and I didn't need mending. I needed the metaphoric slap in the face to realize the more important things in life. Love. Love is what kept me strong. The never-ending love from my family and friends. The love that I found in myself.

In the end it doesn't matter. You will never read this, but that's okay. This wasn't necessarily meant for you to read but rather for me to express in words how I felt and feel now.

I realized my worth, so thank you.