Hey you,
I know you've been feeling down lately. I know that you've been crying and thinking you aren't enough. You feel like there's a sign on your back that says "Please break my heart". I know that your ex moving on is hard and being alone with these thoughts is even harder, but you can do it. You are strong enough to get through this. I know this, even though you don't believe me, because I've watched you pick up your pieces and mend your heart together before. So as someone who has experienced the trauma with you, please allow me to give you some pieces of advice.
You are enough.
You constantly beat yourself up and say so many things are wrong with who you are. There is nothing wrong with who you are. You are an intelligent and witty soul with a heart of gold. Yeah, maybe you have a resting bitch face and a savage attitude but those are things that make you who you are. Remember that there is no other you, there is no one is this world who is exactly like you. You are unique and you offer so many wonderful things to someone that another girl cannot. Do not let one stupid boy make you think otherwise. Do not let him define you.
You are strong.
You think just because you cry, you are weak. "Crying does not make you weak. From birth, it has been a sign that you are alive." Do not think that crying makes you weak. We all cry. You have every right to allow yourself to cry after the hell you've endured. Also, you do not have to have yourself all put together every hour of the day. If we did not allow ourselves to cry, I'm pretty sure we would be classified as robots. So allow yourself to fall apart and to be vulnerable, everyone has those days.
Be yourself again.
You've been someone's "other half" for so long, your mind is scared to be alone. You panic at the thought of being alone at 2 a.m. with thoughts racing through your head. You fear not having someone to call your own or to call you theirs. Do not do this to yourself. Allow your mind, body, and soul to grow in the direction it desires. God did not spend the time creating you and making you this beautiful human being for you to become a heart for sale. You were made to do great things. Find greatness in yourself again. I promise you that when you do, it is like no other joy you've experienced before.
I know these words are easier for me to write than for you to absorb because I am not the one in pain. I am not the one struggling to find who I am in a difficult time. However, I have been in your shoes before. The biggest piece advice I can give you? Time is a beautiful thing, let it work its magic. While this happens, keep yourself busy. Find things that will make you happy and keep your mind off of things. Make new friends, go new places, do things for yourself for the first time in a very long time. As cliché as it is for me to say this, time does heal all wounds. You may still mourn these things in years to come, but not as frequently. One day you will hear his name and not feel that sinking feeling in your stomach. I promise one day you will heal.
Remember, things happen for a reason. You may not see this reason yet, but one day you'll look back on it and realize why it happened. There are amazing things waiting for you out there. There are plans God has in mind for you and he can't wait to watch them play out. So cry as much as you need to and know I will always be there to go through the ups and downs with you.
