So many of us think we know what we want but do we? In a moment, anything could change; your mind, the weather. Like Taylor Swift says “minds change like the weather”. Thanks for proving my point, T.
Anyways, we all seem so set on something once we find something or someone we love but we never know just what's around the short corner. No, I am not saying you should be afraid of love or anything great that comes your way. What I am saying is that you should be careful. Love freely and endlessly but protect your heart. Do not depend on people to make you happy. Clean out the toxic people that make you feel bad about yourself. That never invite you to "squad gatherings," that don't pay attention to you or see the amazing, authentic, original, great, and beautiful person you are. It's their loss! Be self-happy and content.
Sure, people's bitterness and lack of appreciation of you will give you a sour taste in yourself but listen to some good tunes, surround yourself with family, positive vibes and people, nature and love yourself! Genuinely love who you are. There's no one better than who you are. Never change it for anyone. Be original. Be you. After a time, you see people's true colors and see what you mean to people. Maybe not verbally or to your face. Maybe you'll hear some dirt that's been said about you from someone. But here, you gotta shake it off and get out there and show how incredible you are, okay?! Things will catch up to them.
Yes, finding out the hard way that people you thought you were cool with really don't see a fit for you in their lives anymore can be a rude and hurtful awakening but hey, at least you don't have to waste your time with people that don't deserve you anymore. you will outgrow people, you will outgrow groups of people. even people you thought you would never lose your place with. "You can't change who you are but you can change where you're going" as Andy, an actor from the Television Series Major Crimes, once said. Why would you want to change who you are (unless it's to be a better person, of course)? You're you! You have been you your entire life, why would you want to change yourself for people who don't even see what you really have to offer?
When you sense the feeling of being left out of everything, replaced and just that you don't belong to a certain group, doesn't mean that you don't belong at all, you've just outgrown and that's a good thing! You're growing! Growing is good, it's great. It says a lot. It says that you are learning more about yourself and what you want in friends and maybe what you have now, just isn't cutting it anymore. Find people that will say great things about you to your face and to others when you aren't even around, not people that go out and are bitter about you and say mean things to you behind your back. Find people that make you laugh so hard, tears run down your leg, don't stay with people that make you sad all the time and make you wonder what's wrong with you or what you did wrong. Find people that will stay up with you all night talking about your silliest moments and your deepest fears, don't stay with the ones that make you look out the window a night and wish you were different and what "they want" in a person.
You are worthy and beautiful; find people or just someone that sees that. One person may be all you need. Be a beanstalk and grow more healthy friendships and hey, maybe a nice relationship along the way *eyebrow raise*. Sorry, too soon or corny? Don't fret about losing your place with a group of people, look forward to the new and better friendships you have ahead! Embrace life! Shake it off!
To all of the friends that have never left, thank you for dealing with me and loving me. Thank you for always making me feel loved, important and have taught me so much. I love you all!
