I've struggled with the concept of sexuality throughout about half my life. It started in middle school, where about half of the students declared they were bisexual. Google defines sexuality as a person's capacity for sexual feelings.

Most of my struggle consists of the fact the Christian religion has damned people who are not heterosexuals to hell. I also struggle because I have yet to find a word for what I believe I am. I guess I don't really need one, as I have a serious boyfriend I plan to marry. I just don't feel as though "bisexual" describes it completely.

Bisexuality is defined as being sexually attracted to both men and women. Demisexual doesn't quite cover it either, as that means a person doesn't feel sexual attraction until they've formed an emotional bond/attachment to another person.

This issue arises when I realize that when I'm looking at pictures of people or seeing people in real life, I find women more attractive/arousing than men, but if I'm dating someone at the time (I've only ever dated men) I feel sexual attraction to them. It's kind of confusing. Also, I'm not sexually aroused by every woman I see. Again, it's usually someone I know well.

I don't think there's a word for it. I'm a demisexual who swings both ways I suppose. This is why I feel so passionately about LGBTQ rights, as I sympathize with that community even though I haven't quite gotten to the point of considering myself a member of that community. I know what it feels to not feel as though I can talk to my parents about romantic things, or sexuality things. Both of my parents are really conservative.

I'm really glad for my boyfriend, though. When I asked him how he felt about having a bisexual girlfriend, he replied, "It makes me feel even better about our relationship. Because you had a lot more options and still picked me." Yes, love. Yes I did.