Ever since my three-year relationship in high school, I have relived the same scenario time and time again: I meet the perfect guy, and it seems like a perfect situation. But when the time comes to make a decision about the future of our relationship, I always call it quits. But why? Each seemingly more perfect than the last.
I've spent the last two years single, however. I can't quite commit. When I really think about it, I don't want a boyfriend, and here is why.
1. I don't need to take care of someone else. Can I even take care of myself? Barely. I don't need to worry about someone else. Between my sorority, work, and school, I struggle to find balance.
2. I don't need someone to make me happy. I can make myself happy. I spent so much time thinking I needed a boyfriend to be truly happy, but I realized I don't.
3. I'm working on loving myself and figuring out who I am. I'm still learning to love myself. I truly believe you have to love yourself before anyone else can. I first need to figure out who I am before I delve into a relationship with someone else.
4. I'm in a selfish part of my life. I am at a stage in my life where I want to do things on my own that will further my growth as a person. I want to travel, treat myself and try new things without relying on someone else.
5. I don't have the time. I'm busy enough, as it is, taking care of myself. I spend my time running around day to day, and when I finally find the time to breathe, I want to spend that time on myself.
6. My girlfriends are like my boyfriend. We've all heard the phrase “college isn't about finding your husband, it's about finding your bridesmaids," but it's true. I'm happiest when I'm surrounded by my girlfriends.
7. I'm scared to get my heart broken again. I've had enough of the sleepless nights waiting for him to text me back, and wondering if he's out cheating on me. I'm taking a break from the crying because he wasn't everything I dreamed he would be. So instead, I'm going to be everything I dreamed I would be.
When the right time comes, I would love to be in a relationship with someone. But for right now, I'm in a relationship with myself. And I couldn't be happier.
