Disappointing someone versus being scared to disappoint, and why it is a challenge.

As a person who struggles deeply with anxiety, it is very easy to feel like everything that you do is a disappointment to your family, friends, or even God. It is easy to feel this way even when you know that you have not done wrong or made a mistake. Life with anxiety is a daily struggle, and it is even harder to cope when all you want to do is please everyone around you. For me, disappointing someone is worse than making them mad, because to be disappointed means that a person is "sad or displeased because someone or something has failed to fulfill one's hopes or expectations." Therefore, disappointing someone is much worse than any other emotion.

Disappointing someone.

1. When a person has disappointed someone it feels like drowning. Disappointing someone feels like drowning because you cannot come back up for breath, or change the way the person feels.

2. Disappointing someone feels like you are stuck in a place, and you cannot move. This is so challenging, because even if you would do anything in your power to take back or change what you did, there is no going back.

3. Disappointing someone is worse than anything else in the world. This is because when someone is disappointed they are not mad, but they are sad or hurt; which, seeing some sad or hurt is worse than seeing someone mad. Because anger is quick, but sadness can be deep and long-lasting.

Being scared to disappoint someone.

1. Being scared to disappoint someone is worse than disappointing someone. This is because when you are scared of disappointing someone you never truly do what you want to do or say what you want to say, simply because you tiptoe around and worry more about how other people feel, than how you feel. It is a nightmare.

2. When a person doesn't want to disappoint someone else they think everything that they do is a disappointment. Even if it is as simple as going out to eat or hanging out with friends. People with anxiety are afraid to do things as minuscule as that because they are so terrified of losing people they care about or making someone mad. It is a battle within themselves.

3. Thinking that every action will make someone stop loving you or stop caring about you. This is the biggest struggle that people who think they are disappointing someone goes through, because they do not understand that if someone truly loves, and cares for them then they will not stop if they disappoint them or make them mad, simply because if you love someone you cannot stop.

In conclusion, it is extremely hard to go through life when you are always worried that you are going to disappoint someone. Yet, everyone needs to remember that if someone truly loves you, even if you disappoint them, they will still love you.