I don't really follow politics as a general rule. I know it's my duty as an American citizen and all that, but I've never liked drama, especially drama as public as the elections. I've always identified as a modernist Republican in my own terms. I like some of the ideals of both parties in general. That was until this year when I decided that I should actually follow the chaos.

I will never vote for Trump. Not only because of how the media portrays him, since the media isn't exactly an accurate science. But I won't vote for him because of how he portrays himself. You can compile all the videos of him you want, but the fact is that he is promoting something more barbaric than America deserves. He shames women. He wants violence in his rallies, but won't go to one if there are protesters.

I won't vote for Hillary. I think it's an important ideal for America to have a female president, but Hillary is not that woman. I just think we could have known from the mistakes we made with her husband to know better. And while every politician has the right to change their mind, Hillary does it frequently, and only when it is the most popular opinion. But that's just me.

Then there's Bernie. I'd vote for him over the others, but I'd rather not. I like some of his ideals, but what happens to our pockets when those ideas are put in place? Free college? That's wonderful, especially hearing it as a student in college, but where is that money going to come from? Taxes. I'd honestly rather just pay off my loans at my own rate rather than pay for every person ever to go to college. I don't mean that I think only the privileged should be able to go to college -- not at all! -- but there comes a time when you realize that you may not be able to provide for your family due to all the taxes Bernie will take out of our pockets.

I'm a Republican, but I won't vote for any of these people. Yes, two are Democratic, but even so, they aren't great either. I won't #FeelTheBern. I don't want to #MakeAmericaGreatAgain. And I want #FirstFemalePresident, but not this one.

So, as a Republican worried about the future of having a stable life and family, I don't even know what to do in the upcoming elections, because I feel like I'm just grabbing the least sharp knife.