She used to let you take up every corner of her mind, she used to never be able to imagine a life past you, now she's getting used to you not being there. She kept trying to justify why she was holding onto such toxicity while you held onto another girl. What was she really holding onto anymore? Was it the way you held her? The way you knew her inside and out? The way you said, "I love you?" Or was it that she was holding onto who she thought you were?
Maybe she was stuck on the fact that she had spent years of her life with you, six long years learning the in's and out's about you, learning about what you loved, what you hated, how you both shared your hopes and dreams together, how you had the names of your future children picked out. Or maybe she was stuck on your sweet words 'cause Lord knows you're really good at telling a girl everything she wants to hear but it's the actions that never follow through.
But you disappointed her, you broke her.
And yet, through all the heartbreak she's been through, she still finds the courage to seek love again. Pretty crazy, right? She spent way too many nights crying for you and overthinking all the memories the two of you shared. She spent countless hours replaying the situation in her mind, questioning if there was anything more she could have done, or if she had done things differently if you would have stayed.
But the truth is, it wasn't her, it was you, you're the one who didn't follow through with the promises you made. She can admit she wasn't perfect, she can admit she didn't always handle situations the best, but she now knows, no matter what, she did not deserve what you did to her. She still beats herself up from time to time wondering how she fell for your lies. Who knew a person could be so comfortable with being a master manipulator?
But, at the end of the day, you didn't win your little game. She may never understand many things that you put her through, but maybe she's not supposed to. Her heartbreak was the best lesson: she finally took away your power to destroy her.
