I've been thinking of the word rehabilitation. The idea of restoring to health or a normal life. I dislike that the only form of addiction taking seriously is something that is seen as a severe consumption such as drugs and alcohol, even shopping.
Normally, nothing else is seen as an addiction or something you should get help with. And sometimes help is not what you need from others. The help that is needed is more of an escape.
Allowing yourself to take a break from the world to recover from what is truly toxic in your life and heal.
I wish it were appropriate to simply ask to be exiled from the world. Have time to write and read. Have time to walk in nature and pretend technology and social media never existed. Once you escaped, there would be room for people to return without questions, without stigma, and have a sense of belonging to the greater world. I wish that were a possibility, I would go into that route to recover my life.
Many of us have some form of addiction that causes a lot of tension and is often in constant proximity to us. It may remind us of the emptiness in our life or the little that exists in our life. If social media is your addiction, then you only see the mask everyone puts on. The happiness and success people share.
You believe everyone has a picturesque life and relationships.
It wounds you and creates a greater trauma. At least it does to me. It makes me desire the escape much more.
The only thing I can do at the moment is not writing for others. Write for myself. Write when I need to and feel like I can do it. Go on a walk that lasts hours without anyone or any technology or music. I can escape from entering the apps and websites of social media. I can disappear from responding to messages through any platform.
I may seem like a bad person, friend, or relative. A person who is not communicative. But I need to say goodbye to no longer say goodbye to who I used to be and want to be. Isn't it that we are supposed to care for ourselves before caring for others?
Well, that is what I am doing. I need to say goodbye for my own sake.
