Most people say they don't regret their exes. They say they appreciate their time together and learned from it, even if it ended badly. While that may be the case with you and me, I do in fact regret being with you. I regret giving you my heart, but most of all believing you wanted it.

I regret giving you my heart because now I can see how good of a liar you were. You told me over and over again how much you loved me. You promised me you would never hurt me and that you would love me forever. Five months after we ended, I can see how many lies you told, but I will never understand why. I will never understand why you had to lie and say you loved me if you knew you didn't. I will never understand why you promised me forever if you knew you were never going to give it to me. I will never understand why you promised me you would never hurt me when you knew you were going to break my heart.

I regret being intimate with you. That is a gift I was saving for the person I am meant to spend the rest of my life with and for some reason I believed it was you. I foolishly believed you thought the same about me but apparently, I was wrong. I never should have compromised who I was to make you happy and I regret that now.

I regret giving up so much for you. I remember all the parties I didn't go to or nights out with the girls I skipped out on simply because I wanted to make you happy. In the midst of making you happy, I made myself completely unhappy. You never asked me to give up anything, but if I didn't give up things that would have have made you uncomfortable, you always made me feel guilty. You never were directly controlling, but through your insecurities, you controlled me.

I regret introducing you to my family and working so hard to have them like you. The most important thing in the world to me is my family, and you had no respect for that. Yeah you came to family events and acted like the perfect boyfriend. You acted like any girlfriend would have wanted their boyfriend to act, but now I regret that. I regret introducing you to my family because it caused pain on their part. My nephew loved you and so did my niece, and you acted like they meant something to you. When you walked out the door, you not only slammed it on me, but you slammed it on my entire family.

There's a lot I regret about you, and loving you might have to be the biggest of them all. I trusted you and gave you my heart, and you took advantage of that. You took advantage of my openness and willingness to love you even when you didn't deserve it. I look back now at the time we had together and think about what I should have done differently and what I will do differently in the future.