When You're Afraid You Won't Fall In Love Again

When You're Afraid You Won't Fall In Love Again

When you're convinced you won't feel that spark ever again.

If you're reading this, you probably know what it's like to fall in love for the first time. You also probably know what it's like to have your heart broken for the first time too. And when you're young, it can feel very detrimental, on the verge to pure devastation. You don't have to explain it to me because I understand. Falling in love for the first time is one of the most exciting and exhilarating things in the world. I can't really describe it because it's one of those instances that only you can experience to truly understand it. It's such a specific thrill. What's intense and special about falling in love for the first time is enduring these things for yourself; not on TV, not in the movies, not something you read about. When you feel it for the first time, you almost tell yourself that you will never feel something that magical ever again. And that's what I'm talking about.

When I fell in love for the first time, I also had my heart broken by that same person. It was my first real heartbreak; the first time that I felt like I literally couldn't breathe, or there was no hope at the end of the tunnel. Ultimately, everything felt bleak. I'm not saying this so I can write a depressing article or to ask for your pity. In fact, I know I have moved on over the past couple years and accepted the fact that I have begun a new chapter, and this is the strongest that I have ever been. Being sad and heartbroken doesn't scare me anymore, because I've been through it and ripped it off like a band-aid. No, that doesn't get to me. What truly frightens me these days is the concept of not falling in love again. I'm so afraid that I won't have what I had with him - that for some strange reason, all of the emotions, experiences, and memories that were shared with this first will never be had again. It's almost as if my heart ran it's course of feeling something so real for someone - all of the heartache, the bliss, the euphoria, the anger - and then decided to shut off for some reason. I know that's not true and my thoughts are irrational, but I can't help but obtain this lingering feeling that this person took something away from me when he walked out the door two years ago: my faith.

I want to fall in love again. I'm not objected to it in the least bit. I'm one of the most romantic people I know. But I can't help but feel like my outlook on love and being together with someone has been tainted in a way. There have been moments where I feel my heart sink and I anxiously tell myself that I am broken and that there is something wrong with me, all because I believe I won't fall in love again, or that I haven't felt that spark. Then I remember that I am not being patient with myself, with life, and with fate. Just because I don't have it now doesn't mean that I never will be. And I can't keep comparing every person I meet to the first person I fell in love with. It just doesn't work that way. Maybe that's because I really am such a romantic, and I want to delve back into that elation. I don't want him to make me believe that there is something wrong with me, because there isn't. Not at all. But it's a work in progress.

I just know that something is missing, and I want to get it back. I don't intentionally tell myself these things, they just happen out of nowhere, randomly. I hope that someday, I'll feel something amazing with someone. I know that it's going to happen one day, because that's one of the things I truly want in my life - to share it with someone. To go on adventures with someone. I can't keep blaming how I feel on one person who made me feel on top of the world for the first time, because that's irrelevant now. It's normal to compare your first with someone new, but you can't let the past define your future. I need to remember these things.

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What Your Hogwarts House Says About You

Get yourself sorted and find out where you belong in the world of witchcraft and wizardry.

Sorting at Hogwarts is a big deal. Being sorted into a house is essentially being placed into a family while you are away from home learning about witchcraft and wizardry. Your house is made up of the people you will live with, go to classes with, play Quidditch with and everything in between. You basically spend 24/7 with them. Your Hogwarts house is your home away from home.

When you get sorted into a house, it is based on your personality traits. The people in your house are typically like-minded people who display the same characteristics as you.

When you’re a first year at Hogwarts, the minute you set foot in the castle you are swept into the Great Hall to have the ancient Sorting Hat placed on your head. This Sorting Hat decides which “family” you’ll be spending your seven years with.

For some, it is very obvious which house they will be in, due to certain personality traits they possess. For others, they may exemplify traits that fit a multitude of houses and are uncertain where they may end up.

To find out where you belong, you can take the official "Harry Potter" Sorting Hat quiz at Pottermore.com. For all you muggles out there, these are the characteristics that the houses possess and what your house says about you:

Gryffindor: The house of the brave, loyal, courageous, adventurous, daring and chivalrous. Those who stand up for others are typically Gryffindors. Brave-hearted is the most well-known Gryffindor characteristic, and Gryffindors are also known for having a lot of nerve.

Gryffindors are people who hold a multitude of qualities alongside the ones listed, making them a very well-rounded house. People who are Gryffindors are often people who could fit nicely into another house but choose to tell the sorting hat they want Gryffindor (there's that bravery). "Do what is right" is the motto Gryffindors go by.

Being a Gryffindor means that you're probably the adventurous and courageous friend, and you are usually known for doing what is right.

Ravenclaw: The house is known for their wisdom, intelligence, creativity, cleverness and knowledge. Those who value brains over brawn can be found here. Ravenclaws often tend to be quite quirky as well. "Do what is wise" is the motto they strive to follow.

Though Ravenclaws can be know-it-alls sometimes, they most likely do know what the wisest decision is.

If you are known for being the quirky friend, the smartest in the group or just great at making wise decisions, you're definitely a Ravenclaw.

Hufflepuff: This house values hard work, dedication, fair play, patience, and loyalty. Hufflepuff’s are known for being just and true. "Do what is nice" is their motto.

Hufflepuff is known as the “nice house” and believes strongly in sparing peoples feelings and being kind. This is not to say that Hufflepuffs aren't smart or courageous. Hufflepuffs just enjoy making others happy and tend to be more patient towards people.

If you ever find that you are too nice for your own good and cannot bear to hurt someone’s feelings, congratulations, you are a Hufflepuff.

Slytherin: This is the house of the cunning, prideful, resourceful, ambitious, intelligent, and determined. Slytherin's love to be in charge and crave leadership. "Do what is necessary" is the motto of this house.

Slytherin is a fairly well-rounded house, similar to the other houses. They are loyal to those that are loyal to them just as Gryffindors are and are intelligent as Ravenclaws.

Slytherin house as a whole is not evil, despite how many dark wizards come out of this house. That is merely based on the choices of those wizards (so if your friend is a Slytherin, don’t judge, it doesn’t mean they are mean people). Slytherins do, however, have a tendency to be arrogant or prideful. This is most likely due to the fact that everyone in Slytherin is exceedingly proud to be there.

What Hogwarts house you’re in says a lot about the person you are, the traits you possess and how you may act in some situations. But in the end, your house is really just your home that is always there for you. Always.

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How Art Can Help You Take Care Of Yourself

It's time to go on a date with yourself.


Art is a quintessential part of the human experience: it has something that has been present in human culture beginning from prehistoric times, from when human consciousness first entered the world. It is also something that transcends definition and intertwines with our play of life and the meaning of humanity. Art is an expression of feeling in its most ethereal meaning and "for fun" at its most basic.

Personally, as an Art History minor, art has been a dimension of life for me that I have explored deeply and holds a lot of meaning. Painting is a huge outlet and way to deal with stress for me, and appreciating fine art teaches me about the aspect of history and how all of history is tied together throughout paintings, sculptures, and photographs. It helps me center myself and remind me of the place I hold in this world and the curious aspect personal experience of history. However, art doesn't need to be the stereotypical idea of art: it can be expressed through dance, the learning of a new language, or the coloring of mandalas to ease stress.

The exploration of art and the artistic side of human nature is something that everyone has in them: it's written in our psychology. We have an entire side of our brain that is inclined toward feeling and abstract interpretation, so it's natural to assume that emotion and expression of art are intrinsically intertwined. Thus, experiencing art is a way to personally develop yourself, and can be an unfound way of finding out things about yourself.

Different ways to explore your artistic side can be very easy: as easy as 3rd-grade coloring books, coloring mandalas, or finger-painting. Recently, I participated in a lantern festival and being able to paint a small lantern was an amazing outlet from a stress-filled week and allowed me to express myself through something besides just communication. Writing is also another good way to express emotion and create art: many books are just art pieces, and can be another way to further develop yourself. Additionally, other small fun things like carving pumpkins (spooky season!) or even curating the perfect Instagram profile can be another way to express yourself.

Appreciating the small things in your life as art and self-expression help put you more in touch with yourself, which is easy to lose throughout the mundane cycles of college, work, and life in general. Keeping yourself in harmony and balance might seem like an earthy-crunchy concept, but self-care and self-love are vital in keeping the rest of your life ordered. Being mindful of yourself and your goals is something that I have always have had difficulty with, but working toward learning more about yourself is taking the first step.

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