"Use me God. Show me how to take who I am, who I want to be, and what I can do, and use it for a purpose greater than myself."
One of the most asked questions in life is "why?" Why do I need to go to school? Why do I need to graduate college? Why do I need to work here? Why do I need to do that? Why is this happening to me? Why am I here?
Everyone, young or grown, wrestles with the question why. For most people who are my age, the most frequent version of why is "Why am I here?" Or, "What is my purpose?" This is where answers vary for obvious reasons. We are all given different talents, gifts, interests, personalities, and hobbies. These things help us discover what our purpose is.
We can decide "Oh, I really enjoy writing! I should be a writer," or "I love animals; I should be a veterinarian." Maybe you like clothes—obviously you're meant to be a fashion designer. Here's the catch, though. We can try to figure out what we are meant to be doing with our lives or we can turn to the one who orchestrates them. We can decide to be a writer, but we will never be fully fulfilled by doing what we are not called to do.
For me, I thought I would be an accountant because I was good at math. When I was trying to apply to college and pick a major, for some reason accounting is what I leaned toward. By the time I graduated high school and was accepted into college, I discovered I was called into the medical field. I went back and forth between becoming a nurse or being a doctor, and eventually decided I would really make myself suffer and become a doctor. Now I am pursuing a degree in medical/molecular biology and planning on attending medical school in a couple years.
As I said before, talents and hobbies can help us discover our purpose, but ultimately our purpose is given by God. Sometimes pursuing his plan for your life will take you down a path that you may not know the end of. Sometimes it takes you down the road less traveled.
After seeking God's guidance, I felt the need to go into the medical field and decided to pursue biology for the next several years of my life. Honestly, when I entered college I was so set on biology that I knew I was never turning away from it. I quickly fell in love and can't even imagine myself doing anything different.
I am not sure how God is going to use me in the medical field but I know it is open to endless possibilities. I know it would be much easier to get a different degree and not have to attend 12 years of school but I know this is what I am supposed to do. Many people feel this way after they have pursued God's purpose for their life.
By following God's plan for my life, I will be fully fulfilled because he is the giver of true joy and happiness. I have no doubt of this. Pursuing any dream is quite a task. It is hardly ever easy, but that's the point.
You have to seek God's provision and guidance knowing that he will use you for his purpose—a purpose greater than yourself.
"I would rather be what God chose to make me than the most glorious creature that I could think of; for to have been thought about, born in God's thought, and then made by God, is the dearest, grandest, and most precious thing in all thinking." - C.S. Lewis
