"Let all that I am, wait quietly before God."
[New Living Translation]
I posted this verse as a caption for this photo on Instagram about three weeks ago:
It took me by surprise how important I found that verse (Psalm 62:5). I am by no means an expert on waiting quietly before God, but it seemed like something I needed desperately.
So here I am. Waiting. But there is no quiet. No, it's the opposite of quiet.
Change is constant, even if it's as simple as the thermostat or the weather, it's all around us. There is no way to prepare ourselves for change, though I wish there was. As for me, I'm in need of some change.
As hard as it is to say good-bye, I know that Jesus has so many more plans for my life. He wants me to experience life to the full, not just to the brim. He wants me to overflow with life, adventures and love.
With that said, I am ready for a new adventure. It seems like it took me so long to find that out, but I'm ready to become who I was meant to be. I've been shaped into who I am now, by my year and a half at Liberty, but I have so much more to do to reach my highest potential.
I'm calling it a new adventure, not a new chapter, because in life there's no way you can just close the book. You can't give up after everything you've accomplished so far. This is only day one of who you're becoming and day one of the rest of your life. Do something great with it.
As for the verse at the beginning of this article, I've been thinking about it ever since I posted it. What was I really waiting for?
It turns out, I was waiting for something miraculous, spectacular and adventurous. Now that I've found that something, I still find myself trying to find that quiet waiting. I've waited actively and it's been chaotic this past week because of all my recent changes. Now it's time for me to wait quietly, and that by no means, suggests that I just stand to the side and ignore what's before me.
The Hebrew meaning of the word "quiet" translates to "shaqat" which means to be quiet or undisturbed. It's been hard to wait quietly, especially since this last week has been such a fast time. It feels like I've lived three months in a span of 7 days. I'm working on the quiet. It's going to take some time, but it's something I want.
I'm ready for something new.
