As a senior in college, one thing has stayed constant throughout all levels of my education: my procrastination. Whether it’s because I have more access to technology, or just willingly push my responsibilities for what I need to do aside, I know it is something I need to change about myself.

I write this as I am on the due date of writing an article, I am also writing this as I know I have a thesis to work on, more studying to do, and a book to finish for my class. All of this will still be done at the last minute however, because knowing me I’ll make up excuses, watch YouTube videos, and just in general self-loathe about all of the things I need to do and complain that I have had no time to do it.

Then, I will be anxious as I go to work, because I had all morning to try and complete things but decided to go out and have a life instead. I will then cram everything I can in before falling asleep halfway through, because I don’t want to wake up super early to complete the rest, just somewhat early to do what I can, half-ass my way through class discussion, then come back to the work later when I need it for a test or exam or paper.

This problem I have I know can be fixed if I just focused more, stayed off the Internet less, or just create an environment for myself with no distractions. It’s hard though. It’s hard to stay focused on writing a midterm when you want to check on Facebook, or you get a text from a friend saying that they want to hangout with you. It’s hard when my room is a mess, I have a mound of clothes that need to be washed, but by the time I get home I have no motivation to sort it out or hang anything up.

It might just be pure laziness, but it is a problem that I have struggled with and I am determined to try and reverse as I head into the final days of my senior year in college. Having this level of procrastination isn’t healthy, especially for a girl in her 20’s who will be looking for job in my field of study soon. These jobs will depend on me to get my work done, and on time. I also can’t procrastinate in my life either. I’ve already made the mistake of sleeping through my own doctor’s appointment, and I’ve forgotten a few birthdays. I want to be able to keep up with everyone else instead of being ashamed that I let myself fall behind.

Procrastination is a pain in the ass only if you let it. There are ways in which I know I can be more organized, can utilize a calendar more and keep reminders on these pieces of technology that I am being distracted by. It has to be a conscious effort from within, because if not it will become an outward problem that I might not be able to reverse one day, and that might affect others which will only make matters worse.

Being organized doesn’t seem fun, but I know I will feel a lot better when I finally can see results of me getting my shit done, and see more checks being made instead of a list growing longer.