A few years ago, I was being your basic 15-year-old girl and complaining about the fact that I was all alone and how every couple I saw made me want to puke with their love. I was wallowing in the fact that no guy loved me, and honestly I was feeling completely sorry for myself. But right in the middle of my pity party, the Lord spoke to me.
"You know, he already loves you."
And instantly I burst into tears. All this time, I had been crying about my singleness and wishing that God would send me my soulmate, and it had never occurred to me that he was out there. My soulmate was living and breathing on this same green earth that I was living and breathing on, and he probably longed to find me just as much as I longed to find him. And at that moment, I vowed to never be the bitter single girl that people couldn't stand to be around. Instead, I pray for my husband every day.
How do you pray for someone you've never even met? It's so easy.
First, I pray that he is having a good day. Maybe he's in a relationship with another girl. If he is, I pray that when they break up (because they will--he's marrying me after all), he'll keep searching for the right one. I pray that he never gives up searching for me because I will search from now until the end of time to find this man that God created to complete me.
I pray that he is making memories--memories that we will one day discuss over dinner in our new home. Every moment he is living right now is one that I eventually want to hear stories about.
I pray that God keeps him safe. If he's overseas fighting in war or if he's bagging groceries at a supermarket to pay his way through college, I pray that the Lord put a hedge of protection around him and keep him safe until we find our way to each other.
And finally, I pray that he is praying. I pray to God that my husband is somewhere praying for me because I need his prayers every day. I pray that he is asking the Lord to send him a girl who has a passion for life and loves to laugh. Someone who will pray with him, love him with all of her heart and walk down the aisle to marry him someday. I pray that he is somewhere dreaming of the day that he has two sons and three daughters with the woman of his dreams. I pray that he is praying the exact prayer that I pray every time I think of him.
And do you know why I pray for this man I've never laid eyes on? Because I love him. Every ounce of me loves him already. I love the future that we have together even though I don't know the details of it yet. I love that I will get to spend every day loving him until God calls us home.
One day, he'll become the man of my dreams. But for now, he's the man in my prayers.
And to this man that I've never met, I can't wait to be best friends. I can't wait to pray together, laugh together, and love together. I can't wait to look down and see our beautiful baby looking back at me. I can't wait for life with you. See you someday <3.
