It’s hard to comprehend you

For one second, you are a hurricane;

Constantly changing and swirling your emotions everywhere

And another second later

You are as soothing as the ocean breeze

And we are in sync like ocean waves crashing into a pale white sand.

It’s hard to understand you,

When one day your heart yearns to conjoin mine

And another you could watch me walk out the door for the last time,

And you wouldn’t fucking blink an eye

If I said I never wanted to see you again.

You reside in the shadows that follow me while I stand out in the sunshine,

You’re only there when the light fills up my eyes

And disappear as soon as the light is gone

Where the only things that blankets me is regret.

I regret my eagerness to your 2am open arms

When I should have waited to see how open you would be at 1pm

Where your open arms turned into denial.

Nobody should have to fight someone’s soul

To turn a “you” and “me” into a “we”

But here I am

Gambling on our hearts at the worn out poker table

And even though you won’t bet on us,

I’m all in.