I hate your stupid diet and the way you cut your hair.

I hate your lame, half-a**ed attempts at showing me you care.

I hate the way you’ll go for days, pretending I’m not there.

While all the while I sit by the phone, at the screen I do stare.

I hate the way I open up, but you don’t ever share.

I hate the judgement in your eyes, it makes me feel so bare.

I hate that you can have me it just does not seem fair,

that you could take or leave me, but leave? I would not dare.

I hate how you abandon me at the times I need you most.

The memories I hold on to of you leave me dancing with a ghost.

I hate the way I feel after a long night spent with you,

You’re so damn intoxicating but you leave as soon as you’re through.

I hate the way you leave me just as soon as you wake up,

Like you've gotten what you wanted and I’m left here like a schlup.

I hate how I feel embarrassed as if you’re ashamed of me,

because we always seem to do things in places no one can see.

I hate that you always blame me whenever things go wrong,

I know that I mess up sometimes but it’s with you where I belong.

I hate that you can’t see just how much you’ve messed me up,

because my life has no meaning, since I chase you like a pup.

I hate that it has been so long but I still need you here,

Because the love we had is something I still hold so dear.

I hate that you’re so far away in a place I cannot see,

I’m wondering who’s next to you since I know it is not me.

I hate that this consumes me even though you’re gone so long,

It’s all because of you that I can’t listen to that song.

I hate that I still love you even though you don’t love me,

I wish that I could let you go and finally be free.

I hate that this dumb love affair all started in the fall,

But mostly I hate that I can’t hate you, not a little not at all.