A Poem About Restless Nights

A Poem About Restless Nights

Personal Poetry.

The silence woke her.
Not only was she consistently
used to noise all night,
but her anxiety made it deafening.

Impossible to quiet her mind,
she walked to the window,
feet quietly padding along a hardwood floor.
Her husband stirs, but does not wake.
He never really understood the way he claimed to.

In the beginning, she would wake him when she could not sleep;
hoping he could soother her enough to drift off,
but he proved useless at this.
It would take a quite serious emergency
to fully wake him.
And she had long since given up trying.

At this point,
She'd given up on many things, really.
With so little left to believe in,
she simply existed.
Drifting through life.
A ghost, long dead and forever lost.
Staring out the window at a
dying, hgelpless moon.

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Stan Lee Is An Example Of The Infuriating Hypocrisy Of Hollywood Intolerance

This changes everything.

With this year's Golden Globes spending more time and energy on topping an increasingly irritated soapbox against sexual assault rather than celebrating talented filmmakers and their movies, it's abundantly clear that a hostile intolerance to injustice is spreading quickly, and while sexual misconduct is a problem undefined by time, the defiant voice demanding justice is very much a product of a modern era obviously done with being silenced. From the depths of intolerance rises a population of people adamant about not just creating a safe work environment, but reaching one step forward in the fight to rid the world of such horrible suffering.

In an article published by The New York Times titled "After Weinstein: 51 Men Accused of Sexual Misconduct and Their Fall From Power," the public outing of Harvey Weinstein began a domino effect in which all 78 cases of sexual misconduct at the time of writing this have been made public. Of those 78 alleged attackers, 27 men have been suspended from their careers with the remaining 51 having faced resignation or termination--sometimes even without a fair investigation.

As a victim of sexual abuse, myself, I understand the ease of succumbing to blind hostility rather than fairly analyzing both sides. Despite Oprah's ridiculous declaration of spreading "your truth" (truth is singular. There is only the truth and your opinion), it can be difficult to suppress emotion in favor of logic. And with our current era's understanding of conflict resolution being "accuse first, investigate later," it isn't a mystery to see why so many public figures were immediately shunned by the public without the damning evidence that would convict much later. It's an angry world out there and many refuse to hear the "truths" of alleged attackers.

But the apparent calm dismissal of recent Stan Lee allegations is threatening the entire mission.

In an exclusive from The Daily Mail, " a string of female nurses" claim that Lee repeatedly groped and harassed them, asking for oral sex in the shower as well as wanting to be "pleasured in the bedroom." Other supposed actions of his range from walking around naked to using explicit sexual language, and while Lee denies these accusations, this situation is much larger than any surface-level understanding. These accusations against this one man have the power to affect the entire integrity of Hollywood intolerance as well as radically shake-up the fight for social justice so many have aligned with.

Make no mistake, I do not pledge blind allegiance to any particular political or societal side nor is this a slam piece against Stan Lee. The following argument is presented with the explicit intention of exposing the problems found within those that do pledge such devout allegiance.

At the core of any conflict lies passion--an unrestrained enthusiasm responsible for driving any opinion (regardless of stability). Somewhere along the line, however, did the standard of healthy debate lower and our inability to responsibly restrain this passion become equally as unimportant. With a typical discussion of anything even remotely opinion-based becoming an increasingly cancerous scream-fest, the last thing anyone would ever associate "controversy" with would be "indifference." Fortunately for Stan Lee, however, its this very indifference that might be his ultimate survival amidst this situation.

With the deafening, dangerous power of journalism nowadays leading the charge on social justice (sometimes even before concrete evidence is discovered), it's a peculiar observation that the aggressive hostility found in other sexual assault cases is not present here. One credible argument against the generally hushed reaction lies in the fact that The Daily Mail is known not to be as much of a reputable news source as something much larger. Throughout the years, The Daily Mail has gained notoriety in the online community for occasionally having slanderous news to uphold a political bias or even sink so low as to treat gossip as legitimate headlines. But despite any sense of foul-play, the seemingly nonexistent coverage of Lee's allegations invites a frustrating line of questioning. If so many before him were immediately thrown into global headlines at even the possibility of assault, how has Stan Lee been able to not just avoid this same outcome, but somehow escape completely unharmed?

Is it because Stan Lee is a beloved figure with his fingerprints on a monumental era-defining pop-culture franchise that is universally loved?

That's what many of the following NSFW "ah, come on! It's Stan Lee!" commenters feel.

While that final tweet is a fine example that not everybody shares the same sentiments, it's an interesting experiment to see just these reactions to Stan Lee's allegations exist compared to that of someone less beloved. While the reaction here has been mainly dismissive or perhaps infused with humor, calling the response to Lee's allegations "underwhelming" compared to the average response of any other possible attacker is one strong understatement.

But that's the problem. In a world ready to have opinions on even the tiniest mistake, this response is the proof that much of this supposed anger comes from a place of convenience. It's so much easier to criticize a less-beloved figure or one incapable of commanding strong media attention than it is to bring down a juggernaut. But this convenience to social justice doesn't just stem from the popularity of a celebrity. The popularity of a movement proves the obvious transparency with the entire Hollywood industry.

With race tensions being exceptionally high two years ago, Hollywood award shows were heavily dependant on a lack of racial diversity in the nominees--an act that was met with a diverse collection of nominees the following year. This year, Hollywood award shows seem to be boarding the current female empowerment train and have been heavily dependant on a lack of gender diversity in the nominees--an act that will probably be met with a diverse collection of nominees next year.

I guess everybody was too busy being angry at a lack of female diversity to realize that the nominees for Best Director at this year's Golden Globes were not just men but all white.

A race issue that was met with seething hatred and a deafening voice years ago has now been completely dismissed because a new issue is the focus, despite the previous issue failing to be solved. Hollywood is now championing for a female nominee despite a lack of female directors deserving of the award this year anyway. Sure, Patty Jenkins deserves to be remembered for her monumental achievement in breaking through the zeitgeist with "Wonder Woman" in demonstrating a woman can handle the same big-budget resources as any man, but her direction isn't deserving of an award much less a nomination. Gretta Gerwig's "Lady Bird" also offers a similar conflict in that her voice shines through in her much deserved Screenplay nomination, but not in her bland, boring directing. Women deserve to have the same opportunities as men but are not entitled to awards simply because of their gender. Black Jordan Peele being snubbed for Best Director was a problem nobody seems to be talking about because "sexism" was far more important than "racism" that night.

To flip-flop issues constantly in response to whatever movement seems to be happening at the time is the problem we have been forced to endure these past few years and it needs to end now.

Watching the world completely unravel over the past few years has been disheartening and taxing on many a mental health. Seeing outrage over the dumbest possible things became increasingly irritating to the point of unbearable anguish. But at least one could cling to the hope that the perpetual outrage came from a place of ethical upstanding and passionate concern. That hope is now being tossed out the window upon realizing what dismissing Stan Lee truly means. Outrage is only spouted out when convenient and money outranks passion 100% of the time.

A celebrity's fandom ultimately chooses whether or not someone is shunned by the public rather than an investigation. Hollywood can scream all it wants to sound moral but is ultimately trying to remain relevant. Everybody loves Marvel so Stan Lee can go out unscathed.

Marvel now leads one of the biggest opportunities Hollywood has ever faced to confirm its true intolerance to this issue. Either speak up on behalf of the brand to show your support for the cause or do nothing to prove money matters more. This is monumental and it is our duty to use our newfound voice it now boasts to use it for change, not convenience. Do not let this issue go quietly and do not be manipulated by a transparent industry to trick you into respecting the non-existent power it claims to have. Change doesn't come from sporadic anger, it comes from passionate people intelligent and humble enough to differentiate right from wrong; ethical and unlawful; honest and corrupt. With a voice finally being listened to, we are one step forward to fighting for the future. It's now or never. Be informed and get passionate. If you are neither of these things, stay out of the conversation until you are.

Do not ruin this.

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How "The Office" And "Parks and Recreation" Taught Me How To Adult

This is how I learned how to correctly adult.

LET'S GET READY TO RUMBLLLLLLLLEEEEEE! Nah, let's just talk about all the ways that "The Office" and "Parks and Rec" got me through my roughest semesters of college.

I started watching "The Office" as a favor to my wonderful boyfriend, who claims that I don't have enough culture. I would rather watch a movie than dedicate my time to a show, but immediately, I loved this and fell in love with the character development.

Both of the hilarious sitcoms, although more dramatized than what actually goes on in a workplace setting, teach you a lot about life in general and frankly, give me hope that I will make it through actual adulthood. There are a couple of different ways that I am going to break this down, in that it will partly be a character/show analysis and comparison, and partly a debrief on the takeaway life lessons of both shows.


There are so many things that are heartfelt and compassionate in both of these shows, and personally, I truly appreciate the way that they present awesome life lessons in ridiculously, (sometimes, scarily accurate), funny ways that hit you right in the feels. To begin with, my first lesson that I learned, is that it is totally okay to mess up again, and again, and again until you get it right. In "The Office," you constantly see Pam and Jim falling for other people when it is clear that they should ultimately end up together to right the universe. Time and time again, within "Parks and Recreation," Leslie comes up with schemes to try and help the city of Pawnee yet instead, cause more problems than she began with. All this is just to say that even though the shenanigans that are caused become problematic to the original goal, the characters find ways to make it work. I think this is why I love these two shows so much; at the end of every episode, there is a sense that everything will be okay and we all will survive.

The most beneficial lesson to come out of these shows is that it is okay to have no idea what you are doing right now and it's okay to have no idea what the future has in store. Cause let's face it, there has never been any given "correct" way on how to go about stumbling through life, (and if there was, we would be living in sci-fi novel). I say that as long as you are happy and you fight hard for what you believe in, that is all anyone can ask for. And gosh darn it, I feel pretty accomplished getting out of bed and going to classes every day and if I remember to eat, it's been a stellar day!

A theme that is emphasized within "Parks and Recreation" is that there are always two paths to take and the path that you choose may be harder and more winding, but will ultimately pay off. While Tommy represents the ultimate "get rich quick scheme" character (seemingly the easiest route), it is proved that when he actually puts his mind to it, he develops thoughtful and ingenious ideas for both his benefit and his friends. This lesson is also represented in both shows through their relationships that have us grabbing the edge of our seats in anticipation. Ann Perkins and Chris Traeger end up happily together, but only after years of halting their relationship as both friends or lovers. Also, the great love story of Michael and Holly in "The Office" leave you so heartbroken and happy at the same time that we don't know how to feel.

All in all, I think that as someone who has often had to encounter things that others haven't, as well as had to grow up faster than most of my peers, the one lesson that I consider the takeaway from both quirky comedies, is to always be true to yourself and you will find who you are along the way. Now I know that that sounds extremely cheesy emotional, but it's true. don't ever let someone turn you into something you are not. Obviously, in relationships and friendships and any other kind of 'ships', there is some give and take that occurs. And that is totally normal and good to have happen, but when it comes to the people who you truly care about and who care about you, let them see your flaws and your quirks and ridiculous obsessions that you won't show anyone else. Here's why... it is exhausting keeping up a charade (or multiple), forever. And you will eventually slip up. So that's why Leslie is ambitious and pushy, April is the forever moody teenager and Michael is the ridiculous boss; because it works for them and you accept them for who they are.

Although there are many other lessons to be learned from these shows, I wanted to touch on the ones that meant the most to me. The major themes of character development and brilliantly thought-out directing, creates a light-hearted way to speak to all kinds of people; from the Leslie's and Michael's, all the way to the Garry's and Angela's.

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