School holidays always leave me questioning what I should do with my day. I don't like to sleep in and a lot of places I like to go to are closed. There are times I want to get ahead in work or I have to plan my week in a perfect schedule, but this past Martin Luther King day, I couldn't. Instead I did something I've been wanting to do for a very long time: I was still and listened.
Early classes and the feeling of always having to be doing something takes away the one thing I need. I never sit down and just listen. I get anxious and angry that I'm not doing anything. On this day off, I took the advantage to just sit and read. I picked up my Bible, tumbler of tea, and my notebook and enjoyed my quiet time.
It had been a while since I had done any serious reading alone and actually meditated on the words I was reading. I turned to the book of Job and realized I am smaller than everything I think controls my life and God is greater than what I believe should take priority in my day.
As a STEM major, it's easy for me to get caught up on the scientific evidence that holds the universe together, but Job 26:7-14 claims that God is infinite and actually created everything, the powerful and the small. Job's faith in God is the reason I realized I needed a reprieve. My job isn't to know everything and I need to have faith that God will always be there even when I feel like the world is crushing me.
This break I took made me realize I am happy when I can meditate on the words I love so much, and how I can take an hour out of my day to enjoy the creation of God. Even when I can't do intense reading and reflection, just listening to a few songs in nature has led me to feel more connected to God, and honestly, I couldn't be happier.
