Weddings. We all want to be involved in one, have one of our own and any chance we see a wedding on TV we are filled with absolute sweetness and happiness. Weddings are a chance to show someone you love them, to show other people how much you love the other person, and a chance to celebrate two people as a union. Ever since I was a little girl, I have never been the type to want to plan my wedding or really put much thought into them. They are sweet, happy and I loved being in my sister's wedding. I just never really looked at wedding ideas on Pinterest. Until now, I look every chance I can get.
I always thought I would never want a winter wedding, but that all changed when I got my first Charlie Brown Christmas tree, and I decided the theme had to be winter. Now of course, I want my wedding in November. The perfect medium for a winter themed wedding in Autumn. I always thought Pinterest would never give me the best ideas for any wedding themed idea of mine because I am so particular. It had every single idea I wanted, and more. I was kind of shocked for a moment. I was planning my wedding, but I'm not even engaged? I always tell my grandmother, I don't need a guy to be happy. My grandmother is dead set on me finding the love of my life, and getting married. Right now- I am satisfied with planning a wedding for myself without my future husband.
I think the most important part of this whole entire process is knowing who you are as a person, and knowing what you want. I know who I am inside, and I know what I want for this. I doubt in five years I will change my mind for the better. My wedding will be boho cic, winter themed and the most absolute stunning wedding you have ever seen. I will not settle for anything less then the best and what I deserve is the best. Planning without the love of my life by my side does not mean I want or need that connection. It just means I know that God has my future husband in mind, and He is making the connection happen on His time and not ours. As much as I am happy right now with my situation in that department, if God wants us to meet, then God wants us to meet and I have no control over that.
Wedding planning should be fun. Weddings should be fun. I do not want to stress over any little detail, and that is one reason why I have it all planned now. God always says "Do not worry about tomorrow for tomorrow has enough troubles on it's own"...... Matthew 6:34 is one of my favorite verses in the bible by far. I am not going to worry about wedding planning, meeting the love of my life or anything else. I know that planning now might seem a bit far out, but in this moment I would much rather be prepared than not prepared.
I just know that planning without my future husband now, will make things so much easier in the long run. Can any one else relate or am I the only one?
