What is it that makes people hate? Do you think we hate because we are scared or because we are just hateful? I think it varies, and you may never know the true answer to that, for some. For me, I have always believed that people are truly scared. They have every reason to be. We are all running around trying to figure out what the heck we are doing or want to do. Some people know instantly, but others it takes a lot of self care and quality time. There is no time frame on it or expiration date. The most important thing that we should all strive to obtain is believing in ourselves. I have said it so many times, but it is just cold, hard, closed-case facts; if you don't believe in yourself, who will? I always love meeting someone and thinking, "they really know what they are doing", but shortly realizing they are just as confused as me. It is hard to have your life on track, even just a little, and when some people do it, it is so inspiring and rare. That's just it, it is rare. For anyone, but especially teenagers it is rare.
We have so many people watching and awaiting our next move. We are young, but growing up everyday. The pressure is almost unbearable. I fear that if I slip and mess up, I will stay on the ground. Embarrassing yourself is a part of life, and it makes you stronger in the end. So slip and fall, who cares, but remember to get up and be better tomorrow. The worst thing you can do is sit and wait. Not everyone will help you up, so you have to be ready to help yourself up. Don't be afraid to make mistakes, because at least you are trying. I am more scared to never try and always wonder, "what if?". So finally to get to the point of this long, never-ending story; do not worry. Easier said, then done right? So maybe you should worry, but don't let it stop you.
In Philippians 4:13 it says, "I can do all things through him who strengthens me." When I read that I think, "wow this is so uplifting and true, I got through that rough time 2 years ago, 6 months ago, and even last week." I was able to do that because Jesus constantly gives me the strength, that I think is impossible and non-existent. I am here for a reason, just like everyone else. We have to believe in ourselves and trust that it will work out. Pain is a part of life. Fear, anxiety, self-doubt and being nervous is what life is about. I would be more worried for myself if I wasn't slightly scared when I tried something new. Confidence is something I struggle with, no doubt about that. I have backed out of things because I thought I could predict the outcome, and it wasn't in my favor. Well that made me lose right there. I began with self-doubt, so of course I wasn't going to do well. I lost before I even started. Be scared, but do it. You don't have all the answers, but who does? Do your best and be happy with that. You are doing better than most, just by wanting to try. Be terrified, but love it. Nothing is worth trying if it doesn't frighten you.
