One of my biggest fears, is not speaking my mind until it's too late. Words left unsaid, important feelings left unheard. Just the thought of it has kept me up at night before because there once was a time where I held everything in and all it did was hurt me. By the time I was ready to speak, the conversation was over forever. That's why I try to not let a day go by without saying all that I have to.
I find one of the most overlooked things that needs to be said are thank you's.
Sometimes they're implied. Sometimes you and someone in your life do so much for each other that it feels overwhelming to try and thank for every little thing. Sometimes, things that you'd never expect to want to thank someone for become the most important.
Remember to thank your best friends. The people who don't leave your side. Who you can show every part of you, and who don't judge you for who you are. Thank them for listening, for coming with you to your doctor's appointment, for being a few minutes late to their next destination because your conversation ran just a little long. It's easy to thank them when they bring you food or run an errand for you, but just by being in your life they give you just as much.
Remember to thank the person you love most. The person you turn to who gives your heart a place to pour its love into. Thank them for existing, for being a part of your life. Thank them for bringing light to your life, for being patient, for staying. Because their presence is a blessing, and even though they know how you feel, it's nice to hear it too.
Remember to thank your mother or father. Thank them for setting up your life the way the did. Even if they did a bad job. If they've supported you through it all, thank them for being your first fan and most loyal. If they weren't there for you, thank them for making you learn how to rely on yourself first and foremost. For teaching you what to change in the world when you grow up. They shape you whether you like it or not. But either way, you turned out pretty great.
Remember to thank the people that hurt you the most. Thank them making you question everything you know. For breaking all sense of trust so could you learn what's authentic next time around. For making you learn how to be strong all on your own. And thank them for leaving so you could make room for better.
Remember to thank yourself. For never leaving your side, for existing, for setting yourself up for growth and success, for building yourself back up every time you get taken down. For everything. Everything that someone has done for you or to you, chances are you've done them to yourself. But if you're in the one person in your life that you never thank for all you've done, it's gonna be a lot harder to keep loving yourself into staying. And you always deserve to stay.
Thank you for reading. Thank you for feeling. Thank you for existing.
