What if Bobby is purposefully holding onto the past? What if he doesn't know how to let go of it? What if he doesn't want to? Isn't that crazy? That someone is so affected and fueled by something that they think about it all the time? Questions. Nothing but questions that it seems like no one has the answers to. I guess that's just life, right?
They say that time heals all wounds but is that true or is that just bullshit we tell ourselves to help us hold on a little longer? A poet named Alexander Pope once said, "hope springs eternal," and I think that's true. No matter who you are, no matter where you're from, you want a bright future. You want a nice car, a nice house, you want to be loved and for someone to love you. No matter how different we are, we all want the same thing.
I know that Bobby wants that. I know he doesn't want to deal with this shit for the rest of his life. At least I think he does. You see, he doesn't know what it's like to not deal with his PTSD. He doesn't know what it's like to not be angry all the time. So I wonder if the thought of not dealing with this anymore, of being better than he is now, frightens him.
If it does, I think his anxiety can be narrowed down to one particular theme. One familiar question: How do I make sure this doesn't happen again? If I move on, does that mean that it'll happen again? Does that mean I'll make the same mistakes? Questions. Nothing but questions that it seems like no one has the answers to.
