When you lose a parent at a young age many things happen. Slowly the little things that you remember start to fade and all you have left are the things that they left behind and pictures that they are in but it still makes you feel empty inside, because when things get tough and you wish they were here with you makes everything more difficult. Another thing that will happen is you'll not really have anyone there for you. Very little people knew you when you were younger and when you try to talk to them about it they don't really understand to actually be there for you. They either avoid the conversation and walk away or all they say is that they are sorry. Another hard thing that happens through out your life is when you see people you haven't seen in forever and they know your parent and ask what happened or they say you look and act just like them. I know they are only trying to give a compliment but sometimes it makes you think that maybe there was something you did that caused your parent to pass away because sometimes that's the way your told things or when your disowned by most of your other half of the family because they don't like your other parent. Sometimes you need someone to talk to, someone that knew them the most because you miss them so much and you don't know what to do. When you have nobody there happens to become a routine where maybe you hold a picture of them and cry until you fall asleep. You might never understand what happened but in the end, from the things you hear, you will know that they are in a place where they wont be in pain anymore and that no matter what they are still looking down on you.