Dear Lovely Over-thinker,
- We are not special because we pine over things too deeply.
- We are allowed to put ourselves down for overthinking
You’re probably a worrywart like I am, have been since I was old enough to know what worry meant, and I applaud you. Honestly, it takes a lot of energy out of you to worry about everything so often, especially other people, but I’m guessing you’re probably used to that by now. Ever since I was at least thirteen, my thoughts began to be overshadowed by what everyone else has thought of me, and I slowly noticed how I altered myself in order to please everybody.
Why?
Because my oblivious mind was telling me to do so. Maybe my overthinking has turned me into an obsessive control freak, has it done the same to you?
Everyone must tell you how much you worry about other people, and they've given up on telling you to stop telling you to worry because they know they’re just wasting your breath. As a fellow worrywart and over-thinker, I know how persistent we are and that despite how much anyone tells us something, our own assumptions can simply end up just trumping the truth.
To put it as simply as possible: you care too damn much, much more than other people, and sometimes this is a BAD thing. Say you care about something and so does your friend, but you feel like your friend doesn’t care about that something as much as you do. Do you get annoyed at your friend? Obviously. Do you have a right to? Not really. Sometimes, it is plan and simple: people just don’t care; but that doesn’t mean they are against. I know how hard this must be to get through your head due to all your overthinking, but the reality of every situation is right in front of you.
MANY people in your life do not overthink like you, and due to that, they do not get angered or worried by such little things like you do because they learned not to care. And why did they learn not to care? Because it is not worth all the stress to pine over one tiny issue hours and hours, yet we still fucking do it. What a surprise, right? Do you ever wish you could turn on a switch in your brain that can make you not care and just turn your levels of thinking down a couple knots? More often than not I know I do.
You won’t always have friends who answer you or why you react to certain situations the way you do. You don’t understand why your mind is desperately clinging on to this habbit of going far too in depth in a hole that you could not go any deeper into. Ultimately, your overthinking is like digging a hole, as you keep digging and digging when there is really nothing left to or nothing to dig for. Has this digging worn you out yet?
Has it made you feel as if your thoughts should lie to rest for all eternity? Or feel as if your thoughts no longer correlate with the actions you make; because this is simply your overthinking that is probably messing with you mentally. Sorry
Sure, you like to think and think to yourself until there are no brain cells left to even have second thoughts on your potentially inaccurate thoughts. Maybe one day you’ll give yourself credit for all this overthinking or maybe you already have, but I sure as hell know that I haven’t. I sure as hell know that I’m angry at my mind for being so attached to one thought that it makes the thought seem more severe than it truthfully is. Will I ever be thankful for the way my mind works? Will I ever forgive myself for caring so helplessly and deeply about a person, place, or thing? To be determined, just like it may be for you.
Best,
A Fellow Adult, Student, and Childish and Mature Over-thinker
