Here is your warning: I overthink A LOT.
I don't know why I do and nothing can stop it. I am the person that may be worn out and about to fall asleep standing up, but as soon as I lay down my head is racing.
"What did he mean in that text?"
"Did I get all of my stuff from work?"
"What if that professor just absolutely hates me? She did sound kind of rude in that email. Did I do something wrong in class?"
"Are you sure that you can pass all of these classes? They are pretty hard."
It is a never ending cycle of questions and what ifs.They run through my head all the time, especially at night. The smallest fight can start a week long bothersome session. Just hang in there with me, please. Don't tell me everything is going to be alright, I try telling that to myself a hundred times a day and nothing. Don't tell me not to worry about it--- that will just make me think about it more.
I will try to distract myself from my own thoughts multiple times between cleaning the house or picking up extra hours at work. Anything that distracts myself from the thoughts that try to drown me. Please don't try to tell me to take it easy, just let me distract myself but only if I am doing so in a way that isn't pushing you away. You deserve my attention and I will try to use you and our relationship to distract myself also.
Instead of "don't" statements try encouraging me, try asking me if I need anything. Ask if I would like to make brownies with you in the kitchen when I get home so we can play around and sing at the top of our lungs. Try helping me pick out a new book to read at the bookstore to keep for work breaks. Try sending words of encouragement when I have a HUGE exam and I've been stressing about for days. Try rubbing my hand in a long car ride, even if it's just for a few seconds. It's so calming for me and you don't even realize the impact it can have.
Work with me and don't give up on me. Try putting yourself in my shoes and realizing I really can't help all these thoughts no matter how much I try to. I will try not to let the thoughts distract me from our relationship and will probably have pictures of us in random places to get my mind off of things. I know it seems like a lot sometimes and like I can be ADHD when I cant get the thoughts to stop in mind conversations, but I am trying.
It is something I have always struggled with and I can not just shut it off. Here is your warning: my thoughts can go wild, but don't let it scare you.
