As I get closer and closer to the date when I leave for college, I realize that I never really thought about what it would be like to leave you guys behind. I was just ready to leave home and start this crazy new part of my life. All summer I have been running around like a chicken with its head cut off as I gather up all that I’ll need in my new dorm and in my classes. I’ve been preparing myself to be ready for whatever would be thrown my way once I stepped onto campus, but until this summer, I wasn’t preparing myself for the moment when I will have to say goodbye.
As your older sister, I have been a part of your lives since the beginning. I’ve heard your first words, I’ve seen you take your first steps, and I’ve been the first one to help you up when you fall over…only because I was probably the one who pushed you down. You both have firsthand experience with my bossiness…but I hope you know that I just wanted what was best for you (even though you two almost never seem to think so). I never took the fact of being your older sister lightly: if I had a nickel for how many times Mom has told me me, “Katherine, your brother/sister does not need another mother!,” then we all know I’d be able to pay for a couple of semesters of school out of my own pocket.
My point is, now that I am going to college, I won’t be able to here for you as much as I would like to. The fact that I won’t be able to see you both continue to grow and change as people every day weighs heavily on my heart. Even though I’ve complained about being the chauffeur or the babysitter many times, I treasured the time with you. I am going to miss you both so much.
However, just because we won’t live in the same house anymore doesn’t mean I am gone forever. Phone calls and Skype do exist. If you ever have a problem, if you ever need someone to talk or rant to, just call me. I mean, I’m the wisest out of all of us, so I know I’ll have the advice you’ll need. In all seriousness though, there is one thing I’m sure of: some days, I’ll be really lonely, and on those days, all I’m going to want is to hear from you two.
Even though this is a new experience for all of us, I know we’ll get through it together. I love you both so much, and I’m so proud to be your older sister.
