You probably don't think about me very often, odds are you don't glance at my Facebook or Instagram every now and again, like I do to you. Your friends told you that I liked you and from there it started. I remember when you asked me to sit with you at lunch. It was strange because we ran in two different circles but that didn't really matter because heck I liked you a lot. We started snapchatting and you even made me your WCW at one point, but things change, you changed. Do you remember that time I made a complete fool out of myself with you? Or how painfully awkward I was around you after you told me you didn't actually like me? I have to admit it wasn't all bad, we did have some amazing times together before I realized I was just "some girl" to you. But that's not the point. I'm actually writing this to thank you.

Thank you for showing me what I don’t want, at the time I was devastated but eventually I moved on and realized, you're a jerk. You never would contact me first unless "nobody was home" and you wanted to "chill." Forget going out in public with you because in reality I was a last choice. If the three other girls said no then you'd ask me but that was a rarity in itself. I shouldn’t want to be with someone who is embarrassed of me.

Thank you for showing me I want someone who will support me. Telling me to skip practice after school or not show up to a race because you think it's lame doesn't let me grow as a person and only shows me how close minded you are. Just because you think the arts isn't important doesn't mean I do.

Thank you for showing me sex doesn't equal love, that hooking up doesn't take any heart whatsoever, this probably makes me the saddest because that one time we "chilled" in a porta-potty definitely wasn't worth it. This one probably hurts the most because up until I realized this I thought you must have loved me for wanting It so much when in reality you're some guy that wanted to get laid and that was that.

Lastly thank you for pushing me into the arms of the love of my life. Let's face it sometimes sadness can make us see our guy best friends in a whole new light and believe me that’s what you did. You remember him right? You called him a dork and said that he "ain't shit" well he is. He's great, best of all, he isn't you.

Sincerely,