Life’s a little different when you love everything & everyone with every fiber of your being. It’s weird for you, because you just don’t understand how people survive half-assing relationships or when they like something “a little”. You’re all-in with absolutely everything you have. You get hurt a lot more-- and more deeply-- than anyone else, because people just don’t have the same heart as you.

I’m that person. I love everything with my entire being. I’m invested in every relationship, every passion, and I try to make sure everyone is happy. It’s a draining job, and one I definitely didn’t apply for.

I realized when I was young that I had a different heart, one that loved a little differently. Even when I try to guard myself, I always end up failing, because I want what’s best for everyone, and maybe if I open up to them, they’ll be happy or maybe they’ll be a friend. To this day, no matter how hard I try, everyone has an equal chance in my book- because everyone deserves a chance.

It’s hard pouring your entire heart into mending a relationship that wasn’t meant to be mended. It’s hard when people give up on you, because you know you’d never give up on them. Even when your best isn’t good enough, your heart breaks, because you couldn’t save something- something you are better off without. No matter how hard I try, I can’t cut the poisons out of my life, because “this time will be different”. My heart can’t be guarded.

Maybe it wasn’t meant to be.

I’m learning to accept the fact that my heart works a little differently, and more so, I’m learning to embrace it. I’m proud of the passion I have for life and for people.

Loving with a big heart is rare, especially in today’s world-but I won’t let this world steal my passion for loving people, no matter the circumstances.