I want to start this letter by saying thank you. Thank you for ending our relationship. That seems weird, right? Why thank someone for breaking up with you and consequently making you feel like crap? The truth is you forced me to take a better look at what I wanted in a relationship and also what I wanted for myself. This is a goodbye letter of sorts. By the time I finish writing this, I will once and for all be completely done lamenting over our short relationship (even though we have class together every Monday night). I will stop hoping to run into you in the dining hall, or taking the long way back to my dorm in hopes of catching a glimpse of you, I won’t do any of those things anymore because it’s not fair to me. T
he way you ended our relationship had me confused and hurt. After four months, the best you could do was tell me that you felt the spark was lost (about 12 seconds before you told me that you wanted to end our relationship). I felt cheated out of something, like I didn’t matter enough to you to bring it up earlier so that we could try to work it out.
Now I realize that you weren’t ready for a relationship, you weren’t ready to communicate with me or let me know what your true feelings were. It’s okay because our relationship made me realize what I do want. I want someone who will text me good morning, who will tell me that they’re thinking about me when we haven’t seen each other, who will call me at night just to see how my day was. I want someone who doesn't want to go hours, or even days, without communicating with me.
Without you, I never would have realized that I needed so much more than what you were willing to give me. Thank you for ending it when you did, how you did, for the reasons you did, because now I’m able to see what I deserve. I hope you’ll look back on our relationship as fondly as I do knowing that we both (I hope) came out of it with a better understanding of what we want for ourselves (even if it isn’t with each other).
Goodbye to my first college relationship because I’m moving onward and upward.
