To the Boy Who Couldn't Love Me Like I Needed to be Loved,

Thank you for breaking my heart.

While we were together, I thought that you were my whole world. I couldn't imagine a life without you in it. So when you left me it felt like my world had stopped. I felt like I had taken an extra step at the bottom of the steps and I was falling and I didn't know when I would feel stable and safe again.

But now that we aren't together, I can see everything so much more clearly. I can see how you weren't there for me in the way that I needed you to be. I can see how you used me, and lied to me, and manipulated my emotions, just to feed your own insecure ego. I see how you made me feel as if I was never enough, and as if I constantly had to compete for even an ounce of your affection. I understand now that the way you treated me is a reflection of your character, not a reflection of my worth. I had put everything that I was in your hands, trusting that you would protect it, and cherish me, but instead you threw it all away, and treated me as if I was worth nothing.

For a while I believed you. I believed that because you didn't love me anymore, I was unlovable. I believed that because you didn't want me, no one ever would. I believed that since you did not see my value, I was not valuable. I believed it for months.

Then I realized that I am whole on my own, and that I am worth more than the opinion of one insecure and immature boy, who wasn't ready to love me like I needed to be loved, and like I deserved to be loved. I realized that I deserve to be loved in a way that I never have to question, and that I know is true. I deserve to be loved, and not used. I deserve someone who is honest with me, and shows me everyday that they care for me and value me.

That was never going to be how you loved me.

So thank you for breaking my heart. If you hadn't, I would have never found the love that I need.

Sincerely,

The Girl Who is Finally Happy