Jesus,
There are not enough words to say everything I want to. Your love and grace has turned my life upside down. And I need to tell you thank you, I need to say I’m sorry, and I need to tell you that I love you.
Thank You
Thank you, Jesus, for the people that you have blessed me with. You have surrounded me with people who love and care about me in ways that I can’t comprehend. Thank you for the lessons they have taught me, for the ways they have provided for me, and the time they have spent with me. Thank you for shelter, food, water, and security. I know that there are people in this world who, at times, are missing one or more of these things, so I understand that having them is truly a gift, one I shouldn’t forget about. Thank you for the country I live in, and the freedom it allows, even in times where I’m unsure.
Thank you for giving me ways of conversing with you, through studying your Word and through prayer. Your guidance in my life and Your will for me has made all of these things possible. You act as a refuge for me when I am fearful, angered, or overwhelmed. Your arms are always open, even if I have strayed, You always welcome me back home. You love me so much You have made a place for me in Heaven with You. Thank You, for loving me before anyone else did.
I’m Sorry
I feel apologies are necessary, because I’ve just written a fraction of my many blessings and feel so incredibly undeserving. Jesus, I’m sorry that I don’t give you the time that I should in my personal study time with You, I’m sorry that at times, I go days without speaking to You. Yet, You continue to love me and continue to do what’s best for me. I’m sorry for all of the mistakes I will make in my future, the times I won’t trust You, the times I’ll choose to act in ways that do not bring you glory. I’m sorry for the times I will run and hide from You rather than asking forgiveness.
I’m also sorry for the things I’ve done in my past. I’m sorry for the times I couldn’t see Your plan so I took matters into my own hands. I’m sorry for choosing my earthly desires over Your Heavenly plans. I’m sorry that there are times when I have become so angry with You that I’ve turned my back. But still, You always accept me when I come running back to You.
I love You
Jesus, I love you. I am sorry for everything that I’ve done and I thank you for all of the things that You’ve done for me. But more than anything, I love you. You have loved me enough to rescue me from an eternity of suffering and pain and have given me the gift of salvation. You have saved me in every meaning of the word. Your love saved me from a punishment I deserved and from myself on most days. When I felt completely unloved and unlovable, You reminded me of Your intense, passionate, overwhelming love for me.
I have many more things to thank you for and apologize for. But Jesus, my love for You grows every day. The more I learn about You, the more You teach me, and the more You help me grow, the more I grow to love You. It still shocks me that You look past all of the wrong that I’ve done and choose to forgive me and to love me. You continually choose to pick me up out of the messes I’ve gotten myself into. And You always rescue me from the deep, dark places I go from time to time. Your love for me is an example of how I should love other people. I ask that You help me to do that. And I also ask You to keep teaching me and to keep loving me.
Love Always,
Robyn
