First of all, I want to start by saying no one knows who this article is about, and I'll never tell anyone. You may think you know, but I can promise you that you're wrong, so don't try to guess, and don't make assumptions about my feelings and my emotions. You have no idea what is going on inside my body.

I feel like everyone has one person in their life who isn't around anymore and that kills them slowly on a daily basis. It could be a close friend, or someone they were romantically involved with. Either way, you see their face in every crowded room, you hear their voice in every song, and each time you cry, you know at least one tear is in their honor. I hurt all over, and my body houses earthquakes because my tears are so strong because the pain of missing you is so raw and real that I can't hold anything back. The most painful part for me is that I never feel missed by the person who left. And why is it fair that I'm suffering, and they're OK?

However, have we ever stopped and wondered if there truly was a "one that got away?" In my mind, that person is a perfect gentleman. He always puts my needs above whatever is in his life, and he has a million reasons why he left me that I am capable of forgiving. But that's just not real. Reality is so much more cruel. Because that man doesn't talk to me, not even to see how I'm doing. He doesn't care if I get sick, or upset because something didn't go my way, and he doesn't reach out to me.

I defend words that you will never say to me and have memories of times that never happened because I put you on a pedestal, and it's only hurting me. I know you're a good person, you just weren't right for me. And maybe you were and we just had the wrong timing. But does that mean we'll ever get another chance to get it right?

No matter what, this version of you that I have created in my mind isn't real. I need to let it go because it's only causing me pain. There is no "one that got away," just a person I manifested to make myself feel better about the fact that you don't want me anymore because things got too real, or just a little too hard, and you didn't think I was worth the effort.

So maybe our story isn't completely over, and maybe you are still hurting and just can't figure out how to tell me the truth. One thing is for sure, I can never forget the person you were to me because even though you left for a reason, I'll always hope that you come back.