A Letter To The Invisible Man That Never Loved Me
First of all, thank you. Thank you for leaving me, it's the best thing you could have done for my life.
On my 13th birthday you admitted that you didn't love me, you had never loved me, never will, and that "I hope you've always been able to feel my hate towards you." You were there, though, every single day of my life until I was 13. You left, and while leaving you left your entire family behind.
I hope your new life is better than it could have been if you would have stayed with us. You tell people that you don't have children. Maybe that's because you do not want to explain to people why you left such amazing people, your family, your wife, your pets and your everything. I hope your new life is just what you want it to be.
You are invisible to me. On forms when they ask for my father's information I put N/A because you are "not applicable" to my life. You do not exist, yet your heart still beats.
I've heard stories that you loved me until I was three-years-old. I'm 19 now. That's 16 years that you missed out on and will never get back. Do you care? Does it matter to you? Probably not. Every day is a new day, and each day you choose to live your own life.
You have not, and never will see me grow into the person I am today. Although let me tell you, I'm kicking butt and taking names. I wish you cared enough to be a part of my successes and my failures. You will not be the one to walk my sister and me down the aisle. You are not on family vacations. You are not a part of our lives anymore, and we are okay with that.
I repeat, we are okay with that.
I wish you knew what amazing things you are missing out on with your children, and now ex-wife. I wish you remembered my birthday. I wish you cared about my life. We are amazing people, and that's all thanks to you leaving. I do not mind that you do not claim us. Because we do not claim you either.
You are alive. You live across the country. You make no effort to be a part of my life, and I can only thank you for that. Thank you for giving me the power to move forward in my life without you holding me back.
As Father's Day has recently passed, we celebrated mom. She is, and always will be, the person that took your role and strived with it. Thank you for that, mommy.
To the invisible man that never loved me, thank you.
