I know how you feel. I’ve felt that way too.
You gave everything to someone just to have it repeatedly thrown back into your face. Maybe he cheated, lied, or maybe he was just plain indecisive about what he wanted in a relationship: either way, he mistreated you. He twisted and turned your thoughts and feelings any way that he could.
He loved you, or so you thought, and you loved him, but something was just never right. Your heart has been broke so many times that you’ve completely lost count. And not only that, you’ve completely lost your ability to trust another with your heart.
How could you? The last time you gave it away it was abused, mistreated, and neglected. You’ve picked up the pieces all on your own. You’ve built up a wall to protect yourself from ever being vulnerable again. You don’t think you could ever go through that type of pain ever again.
I’m here to tell you that it’s okay. It may not be today or tomorrow, but someday you will meet somebody worth opening up to. You will meet someone who loves you the way you love them. Someone who treats you exactly the way you deserve.
The only problem with girls like us is, our walls built to keep the bad out are also keeping out the good too. No one will ever be able to prove to you that they deserve a chance if they never get the opportunity.
What’s more is if we never can open up to anyone, we never give ourselves the opportunity to show someone who we really are. The kind, loving, and generous souls we have within us. When we can’t be vulnerable, we never let anyone see the real us.
You can’t let the past define your future or keep you from it. I’m not saying you need to forget what you’ve been through, because trust me, I know more than anyone how much what has happened has changed you. Maybe even for the better. It’s made you stronger and wiser. But you should forgive.
Forgive the person who hurt you. When you forgive you open your mind to let go of the hurt that accompanied that anger you were holding. Letting go of the anger is the first step to opening up to something new.
Do not hold what he has done against anyone else. Only he can control what he has done to you. That’s his burden to bear, not yours or theirs.
The only thing you are responsible for is your own happiness. Learn from your mistakes but don’t let them keep you from finding true happiness. Love will always be hard, especially for those of us who love hard and fast. Forgive those who have done you wrong so that you may open your heart up to those who won’t.
You will love again, and you deserve to. But most of all, you deserve to move on and be happy.
